**CONTAINS TRIGGERS** Really dont know where to go from here

[Skyblue1202]

So I've been having every bad experience at the moment with my depression and anxiety. On the anxiety side of things, I dont want to go out, interact with people and generally very nervous about everything.

It's been going on for about 2 and half weeks now where I cant face anything. Let alone think about living anymore. I have self harmed. I haven't done this in over 7 months so feel more shame, guilt etc over this.

I've called crisis/connections, 111, been to a and e twice and have been given no help even though I'm saying I'm going to take my life and or self harm.

Basically psych liaison have said to go to the "retreat" which a place where you can get help from peer workers. Problem is we live in a little village miles and miles away and my anxiety is also stopping me.

I've tried distress tolerance, emotional regulation, distraction and so much more. I've called samaritans just to try and get it all out. Even that's not working.

I'm just laying here crying all the time. Do t know what to do anymore. Feel pointless, despair and fear. I can only see one way out.

[BlueSky125]

I’m sorry to hear that you are having such a hard time right now, I think a good thing to keep in mind is that your thoughts and feelings are temporary. How you are feeling right now will change in the future. Did something happen to you two and half weeks ago. For the retreat could someone pick you up or maybe a family member or friend could take you. What have you tried for distress tolerance. There are many different things you could try to distract yourself from what your currently experiencing.

[Skyblue1202 in reply to BlueSky125]

I've tried the distress tolerance to try and bring down my emotions

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Welcome to the club. I've been in this miserable state for over a year. The most messed up part is that my life is more or less in order. I am a lawyer, I have a loving family, and all that but I still have no desire to live.

Seriously wish I had an answer to give you, this is the most I can offer. I hope you find solace in my misery.

[Skyblue1202]

The would ds are clean and dressed.

[Skyblue1202]

I've just been getting gradually worse for two weeks. I have a urine infection I dont k ow if that could throw me off this much.