Trust

[jhoop2go]

My ex and I tried to maintain some form of friendship. I have forgiven her and I have taken responsibility for the challenges of my anxiety. My mistake was staying in a relationship that caused anxiety from the beginning. She always struggled with commitment and I guess when she married I thought things changed, but they actually were worse. So I spoke to her for the first time in a while yesterday, and I could tell she was distant. When I asked why, she said she didn't trust me. It felt harsh considering that I haven't done anything to break her trust. As I thought about it, it is me who put my trust in her, and she turned her back on us. As far as I know, she never tried to understand what triggered my anxiety and how we could work through it. I just feel that it was way unfair to say I was the one who was untrustworthy. I really do feel better, because I know I wasn't the untrustworthy one. I feel more ready to let it go.

[Midori]

That is a good sign.

Cheers, Midori