Hello! This is my first time on a support site. I have been reading others' posts and just from that feel a fellowship with this community who have gone through and are going through many of the problems I have been facing in my life. Thank you so much to this community, who have the courage to post about their struggles and others who just post to "listen" and be present. What a huge contribution.
I am in my mid-life and my husband of 27 years left me 4 years ago for a woman 35 years younger than him. My parents and siblings are uncaring and unsympathetic and think I should just get over it. Both parents show very little care or interest in me, they prefer my siblings. I have almost zero contact with them and when I do it causes so much anxiety and stress and depression that I am considering cutting off all contact. My one brother, who had compassion and kindness was killed in a motorcycle accident back in May. I was already really struggling and now feel like getting through each day is a monumental task. I wake up with a heavy dread, like a huge weight on my chest, and now have been unable to get to sleep at night. I already had insomnia (waking up in the middle of the night) but lately, now I am unable to get to sleep, even though I am exhausted. I have to mention the one light in my life, my teen son, who is there and is why I get up everyday. I am fighting to "fix" my life, to find a purpose, to find connection. There is so much more to say, but I'll save it for another post.
I want to end by saying thank you, again, to all the others who post here and help me to feel I am not alone, there are so many others suffering and going through what I am and it is a comfort to know I am not alone and neither are you!