55 years on this earth and Life throws all the bad and ugly. I learn, persevere and get up, be kind, and all I get is pain time and time again. And now my boyfriend dumped me because he prefers another woman. What a waste of precious time. The thought of dying gives me a tinsy tiny bit of relief. Women want to be desired and in return will give back their life to their man. Is that too much to ask for? I have taken care of my sick parents and put food on the table for my younger siblings. So many problems I had to overcome. Never ending. And now rejection again. Life is my enemy. I surrender. I want out. Does anyone feel the same?