Depression anxiety pain issues

[Cutiey75]

I do not like my life I had bad relationships ex hit other ex boyfriend Drank a lot other ex verbal abuse. I tried jobs along time ago I babysat had a cleaning hostess jobs. I have two great older kids are doing good i’m single now I have pain issues depression anxiety I take medication from my issues my dad overdosed 19 years ago by accident. I had a left hip replacement 3 years ago I almost overdosed two years ago I was in the hospital for a week was depressed my best friend passed away her boyfriend killed her with fentanyl I live with my mom and son. I have no friends now I’m single now I want to end my life October on my birthday I can’t live like this for long I pray for my kids and mom I wrote this down in my journal and talk to Counselor and Psychiatrist

[Fearoffear]

Hi Cutiey75 I can relate to you. I have pain issues with fibromyalgia and perimenopause is kicking my a**!! I have a bad rotator cuff, hip and knee. I'm falling apart, lol. I lost my best friend in 2010 her boyfriend overdosed her while she was sleeping and I lost my mom 6 days after my best friend. My son's have Duchene muscular dystrophy and my oldest son is in the hospital for pneumonia. I have been down the dark paths also but I can't let the darkness win, I am too important to my children and they are to me. I am here if you need a friend or a listening ear. I'm on the east coast so I am usually checking in from 10am to 1am and then I try to sleep. The night drench is the worst and I wake up heart pounding unable to find restful sleep so I pop up here a lot. Gentle hugs and you are brave!!🫂🫂

[Cutiey75 in reply to Fearoffear]

Hi Fearoffear I’m so sorry to hear about ur pain issues and losing ur best friend and mom.I’m sorry to hear about both of sons.

I might text you back soon thanks so much for sharing that. I hope everyone gets better soon.

[Fearoffear in reply to Cutiey75]

Thank you and yes text me anytime!! My son is coming home me this afternoon!! So excited!!

[Hidden]

You haven therapists and they keep an eye out for you. You have a family a young person and also your Mother. Your problem is you have people around you who you mean a lot toy you and them. How would you child feel if you took your life. Over the years I have known Suicides and the damage caused when they took there own life, the disruption in a family carers life and the long term reduction in the life of the child can be disruptive and last for many years, even inadulthood, it rarely goes away the feelings of doubt, they look into why you would do such a thing and it always can come down to they caused this sadness, also the expectations of love lost can have a lasting effect.

I gather your Mother is looking after your child, She may become ill and be unable to look after your child etc. Is there someone else who could look after him if your mother departs this world.

We all have responsibilities yours are laid out for all to see that is why you see Therapists. Suicide is a selfish way especially if we have some people left behind, Move on and consider positive activities you could dowith your Son

Where is the Father, does He not have any interests in the child

BOB

[Cutiey75 in reply to Hidden]

My kids have different dads they were both not in my kids life it’s sad

[Hidden]

I have a chronic pain condition that has lasted now since 1975. I take Opiates and other drugs to help me I keep reducing doses and increasing them as the need arises. Have you discusse your problem with your GP. Would a Pain Clinic be a positive way through, I have been twice and I have found it a wonderful help with controlling your condition

BOB