Feeling guilty and useless

[sarahsfeelings]

I see my parents go to work everyday and I know a few of my peers have jobs and then I look at myself. It's the first summer in a long time that I've been free of studying and exams, I know I needed some rest but I'm getting kind of overwhelmed. I feel guilty that I don't have a job and a source of income. I really expect myself to be a successful person in the age of 19. I'm really hardworking it's not like I'm always wasting my time doing nothing and worrying, I study a lot and I'm almost always busy with university and my classes, but if I have nothing to do for a couple of weeks I start going mad and I blame myself for every single thing that I do and never enjoy anything. I expect myself to be working all the time and have my life together. The thing that hurts me the most is that I blame myself all the time and that I'm constantly anxious that I'm never gonna be a successful adult if I don't start working now. I really don't know what to do. Should I really feel this way?

I was supposed to work in a café this summer but I've decided to postpone it because my country has the highest number of covid cases in the world and we have no access to vaccines( only 5 percent of the population have been vaccinated so far). So I'd rather wait a little bit and then start the job but again I'll keep blaming myself for this too. Please respond to this post if you've had the same experience.

[ReadingGuy]

I would list those people in your support system here. You sound like someone who is working toward success. We all need emotional support no matter what is happening in the world. You are important and accepted by our community. You are the heroine in your own story. I think everyone is feeling anxious about the Covid and not being able to do more. It also important to learn it is OK to relax. You earned it by your hard work at school.

[TryingMybest492]

Keep yourself busy doing things you enjoy. There’s a whole lot of life ahead of you abs plenty of time for work. Right now you’re in a place to be creative, curious, and do things that fill your cup. It’s ok to give yourself time to explore. What other people are doing is their journey. Don’t judge yourself against their life. We’re all on our own paths. Not working is ok. Promise