I am still stuck.

[Mishell11]

Its been two weeks since my ex boyfriends father passed away. I have not been able to move on, i seem to start crying all of a suddenly and i can't do anything about it. Maybe it's because i have been holding it, but i just can't help myself. I have all the regret and guilt coming back to me for everything i did. I want to move past this. Everytime i see someone who's similar to his dad or one of his family member, i lose it. I have to cope withv things, but i can't. I want help. I really do. I keep myself busy to keep all of this away, but once i am alone everything rushes back ans hits me hard. I want a break from life. I just want to relax. Maybe forget everything and start a new life. I don't know. But i need to stay away. I wish nothing ever happened. I wish i wasn't alive to do any of these. I am done. I am dome hurting people. I don't know why is my ex boyfriends father's demise hurting me so much, its making want to weep suddenly and just burst out but i can't. I want to talk to someone, but i can't. I don't have anyone to talk to. I moved people away from me. I am losing all of it.

[pam4him]

So sorry for the loss. First, grief usually takes longer than 2 weeks to process. Losing people that were part of our lives hurts, often even if the relationship was not all that good. Second, try to be gentle with yourself. Have that good cry when you are alone. It cleanses the soul and lets out some of the emotional pain. Journaling those feelings could also help. Lastly, we are here for you. Feel free to reach out anytime. Prayers for peace and strength.

[FOF9303]

I am so sorry you are feeling so rough right now. Grief and regret tangled up in one can be so heavy on the heart. It will get better with time. It has only been a short while so give yourself a break and cry it out and try journaling. If you think it would be helpful try writing a letter to those you have hurt asking forgiveness and then forgive yourself. One day at a time. Blessings to you.