I just *******hate myself! Always try to be polite and nice and avoid confrontation when the reality is that I’d rather shout to feel better. But I don’t. I wear a mask, almost everyday. It’s an invisible mask that shows me smiley. But I see my eyes, and they look sad and uncomfortable. I feel uncomfortable with myself.
Wearing a mask: I just *******hate... - Anxiety and Depre...
Wearing a mask
I wear that mask too. So much that what was underneath is no longer there, now just a hole with no feelings, nothing to say, who just stares at the ground
You are here, talking about what's behind the mask. You are able to learn how to keep what is good about being nice and polite, AND how to have necessary conflict without being a rage monster. Most of us didn't learn anything about how to have good conflict, and it doesn't come naturally.
This Delta Variant Plus is really taking over, and it’s deadly, so I’m gonna stick with isolating and wearing a mask because even with the two shots, that only gives me 79% immunity and they are not sure how long that’s gonna last before the next variant is going to mutate. I think the next vector and group to get hit is going to be the kids, then sadly, maybe these idiots will start wearing masks, get vaccinated, and stop going to super spreader events. Because they are only going to get added to the Darwin Society’s list of clearing the gene pool of idiots. Why people are willing to gamble with this is beyond me. There will be no time for even herd immunity with this Delta, it's 70% more infectious, and 40% more lethal. And yet people still walk around thinking they have the invisible bubble of protection, until this Covid pops their bubble.
You have every right to do what you feel is right, but you should never call people idiots because they don't feel or do the same as you.
I understand but I don't think your issue is you want to scream at people. I think it more relates to you feeling trapped, wearing the mask as you say. You avoid confrontation which makes you feel worse and leads to you wanting to scream and being more angry. The simple truth of life is conflict is unavoidable. It will happen whether we want it or not. So the best thing to do is to learn to handle conflict. Be assertive when you need to be, stand up for yourself. Actively listen to the other person so you understand their side as well as yours. Don't be afraid to say no, you are important and matter. And last know that being angry is okay but resolving conflict require open communication on both sides. If you need to step back and take a break. Come back to the conflict later on. And if the other person is not willing to hear you then you are perfectly valid in not continuing the conversation as it's going to go nowhere. Again, the key in conflict resolution is to actively listen and to be willing to stand up for yourself. By attempting to please or placate the other person you diminish yourself and thus end up feeling worse off. Don't avoid conflict, accept it as an inevitability and then work at managing your conflict resolution skills. Once you are able to communicate about yourself effectively and have the power to say no or just walk away you will find conflict isn't all that bad. It's still annoying but not bad.
How are you?