Dear P, Sweet P,
I am down on bended knees apologizing for how much i've hurt you and your self esteem. For many years I have kept you in a cycle of believing you are not enough and that other people's opinion matter. I know you are single once again and it's not easy for you because of how genuine your love was for jar. But the truth is even at your worst, the person that's for you, will not leave you believing that you are solely at fault. They won't tear you down and they will be your rock. I'm so sorry it didn't work out but it was not your fault. It never was. P.s. I'm glad your skin is better now that you're less stressed about pleasing him and catering to his needs.
You are a great caregiver and people appreciate how hard you work, trust me they notice. People can be cruel to you and try to tear down your self-esteem more than I do, but that is only because they are not proud of who they are. Your silence to those people is powerful and you are learning to put your energy towards those who empower you and inspire you to be better. There's people around you who do love you and want the best for you even though you feel like you have no one around you.
You've came a long way from losing your father to moving out of state on your own to fighting depression, severe anxiety, and emotional abuse all on your own. You're doing your best to make me proud and for that I will do better in lifting you up. Please never give up because one day you will have a family of your own. For now, you still have more to learn. I love you.
Do your mental struggles show something wonderful about you?
Respect your energetic needs 
More issues going on with mom :/ I understand if you guys are sick of me posting. I just have no one now. And I DO need support.
I did it!!!
