What I’ve Learned So Far.

[TheFallenOne]

I learned that even if you tried your best you’ll never be right for the wrong person, but even at your worst, the right person will remind you of your worth. That’s the test. Also, the moment you feel you have to prove your worth to someone, it’s at that moment you have to absolutely walk away.

I’m not going to lose my dignity or self-respect trying to make him love and appreciate me when he obviously isn’t capable of those things. It’s sad that sometimes the people you love the most, turn out to be the last people you can trust the least.

Going through a divorce hurts. Especially when I believed him on our wedding day saying “Though sickness and in health.” It hurts to see my daughter go through this, too. It’s so heartbreaking.

I did everything in my power to keep our family together, but you can’t make someone stay or love you if they can’t love themselves and want to experience different things and get interested in other people.

No matter how much he meant to me, doesn’t mean that he valued me the same. One day he’ll regret it, and I won’t be there for him. You can only be rejected so many times before you’ve had enough.

It hurts and sucks, but I don’t want to go through it all over again and constantly worry he’ll do it again. The mental problems I have aren’t making it any better, but I’m trying. I will get through this. One day at a time.

[WVArcher]

Yes, you will get through it. It’s definitely a roller coaster ride. By the end, you’ll find who are true friends.

I guess you could look at it as a cleansing, or rebirth of your life. You are getting rid of the toxicity and regaining yourself. Trust yourself and throw what you can’t control to the side. It will all sort out. All you need is faith. Life through us lemons. It’s up to us to make the lemonade and relax.

[TheFallenOne in reply to WVArcher]

It is definitely a rollercoaster ride for sure. I’m trying to think of the positive outcome it’ll bring later on, but each passing day, it feels as if it’s worse. It really is harder to see the pain in my daughter. She is my life and I have to do what’s best for her and take care of her. It’s just sad that someone that was supposed to love you for you, through sickness and in health just disappears and wants to find something new. All this is definitely taking a bigger toll on my mental illness, and the pain all over my body is just getting worse but, I want my daughter to be healthy and happy more than anything. 😞

[WVArcher in reply to TheFallenOne]

I agree with you totally. I went through all of that. I kept re hashing everything over and over. It takes a huge toll on you. You are never quite the same person you were before.

[SA192461]

I’m so sorry for what you’re going through, as I know the pain only too well.. My ex husband divorced me after 30 years..my anxiety & depression have only gotten worse. I loved him so much, as I thought he loved me. Sending Hugs to you & hoping the best for both of us. 💕

[TheFallenOne in reply to SA192461]

I’m so sorry you’re going through it, too. It is a struggle for sure...especially for my daughter. It pains me to see her hurt. I just don’t understand how someone can be so shallow and act like I never existed and meant nothing...while he knows that my daughter is having a very rough time, he’s acting as if everything is totally fine. I just want this pain to go away for us. I wish I could take on her pain on top of mine but, I can’t and that hurts deeply, too. I will be hoping for the best for you and hugs as well. 💜