So here I am

[IndigoHeart]

Hello everyone, I'm new in this community.

I have spent a good part of my life dealing with mainly depression. Once in a crisis I told my family that I needed help, that this somehow is not me, but they don't believe me or they just don't care, I don't know.

I went to the psychologist and was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder (MDD), I just don't know what to do with my life. It feels like I have a thick, heavy black cloak on me at all times, as if everything I see, hear or feel is conditioned by this.

I feel lonely and have no one to tell what I feel, I found this site and well, I wanted to take advantage of the moment to vent a little.

I am Spanish speaker so if I screw up, sorry

[Livelydively]

Welcome! The community is very welcoming and helpful.

[IndigoHeart in reply to Livelydively]

Thank you very much! I am really feeling comfortable here from now on. So here we are to help each other.

[Hidden]

Never give up trying to find what will help you reach stability. Getting a "diagnosis" sounds good, but what you need is relief. Some combination of medication and coping relief does exist, but we can spend large parts of our lives trying to find mental health professionals that will know how to test different medications and will allow the process to happen. It might take you months. Step one is finding professional help in a world where mental health is underappreciated.

[IndigoHeart in reply to Hidden]

That stability sometimes sounds like an impossible mountain to me. Another thing is that I really don't want to be medicated. In your experience, do you think it sounds like a fairy tale?

I do not have the strength to seek professional help because I feel that I am already a hopeless case, I know that is not true, but it is like a vicious circle ... is the help of a professional absolutely necessary, right?

Sorry if I ask but I feel like you have experience in this :D.

[Iammesues]

Welcome. Here we listen to each other and share. There are many people, including me, who don’t have a trusted person near us to listen to how we feel and struggle. The pain builds up inside. I’m a good listener

[IndigoHeart in reply to Iammesues]

Hi thanks

In what little I have read, I love to see the support and good vibes here. Well, we do not have someone we trust around, but we have each other here to alleviate that pain that accumulates inside us if we do not let it out.

[IndigoHeart]

Thank you! I'm really glad to find a little support here, yeah everyone here has problems in their own way, I'm surprised and happy in the same way that people going through a difficult time have to give to others, and of course you can count on me \^-^/