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[Sarah2468jones]

I am sure I sound stupid and repetative but this is tough. When I first realized I had depression I wanted to get rid of it (I still do), but I have found comfort it it. I have worn it like armor to sheild me from hurt. If I am already depressed and sad doesn't that keep me from getting hurt anymore? I found that was wrong but I don't really know what not feeling like this would be like anymore.

[kenster1]

hi sarah and welcome to you.

[Sarah2468jones in reply to kenster1]

Hello and thank you that means alot

[PearliePower]

Depression is a nasty little thing... you CAN overcome! Try and find a zoom meeting and a the depression anonymous book. Remember to be kind to yourself and give yourself grace. Try writing a gratitude list every day at least ten things. You will see a brighter day and you are worthy and deserving of it.

[Sarah2468jones in reply to PearliePower]

Thank you it's just not easy and I am struggling.

[Rachel2535]

I got so used to depression, I actually didn’t know who I was without it because it started when I was five. When I hit my late 20s and started having kids it got so much worse. I can’t even remember my childhood until I was in my thirties because I was so deeply depressed. But I can remember the day my depression was healed. I woke up one morning and went outside like I always did but this time I saw beauty. I no longer hated myself and wanted to end me...but I saw beauty. So don’t let that lie take you over, you are so much more then your depression. Talk to a pastor, counselor or mentor someone who can help you work through this and get to the bottom of your depression and help you work your way back out. It was my faith in Jesus that healed the brokenness in me and also working through and getting to the core of my depression. So don’t stop fighting for wholeness. -Rachel

[Hidden in reply to Rachel2535]

Awesome reply. Glad you have found the way.