Heartbreaking

[Aryank]

Guys it feels so bad and kills you from inside when you see normal people around enjoying their life and you cant... Feels so broken when you have everything and cant enjoy anything wish we all get better and can live our life on the top.I miss old me :,(

[NoHoWarrior]

I think I know exactly what you mean.

[Aryank in reply to NoHoWarrior]

I bought a new car and guess what not enjoying it. People say why its so dirty get it washed.. i am like mannn you wont understand... i dont feel healthy how can i enjoy it... how can i explain them what i go through... and they thing wow he has a great life,,, new car lots of money etc... hahah Good Health is the real wealth

[leaningonjesus]

yes yes yes. agreed. 150%. its so draining and exhausting and seemingly never ending

[Aryank in reply to leaningonjesus]

I used to be so different... so passionate.. i use to go on unplanned trips... pick up my stuff car and go on long road trips counties,was totally fear free... was never scared of anything. And then it all changed.

[leaningonjesus in reply to Aryank]

i understand completely. i used to love life. love being out, love people. now i feel like nothing but a shell with darkness inside its terrible will it end? i try to fight the battles. its getting increasingly more difficult

[Aryank in reply to leaningonjesus]

I have fighting it from few years now i dont dont when its going to end. I am so sick of it that when i get palpitation or an attack i am like wow its happening again and literally i talk to my anxiety now that please for God sake leave me alone. Sometimes i stand infront of the mirror and tell my self that cmon you are strong... its just your brain messing up you are fine... but to be honest its killing me slowly and slowly... you start loosing hope when you see you are just not getting better. Its weakening me.

[leaningonjesus in reply to Aryank]

im so sorry for what you go through. i know it takes everything out and away and its like whats the point of.....(fill in the blank).thinking of you tonight🙏🏻

[Aryank in reply to leaningonjesus]

Maybe, some day some magic happens, someday, maybe

[Sunflower_girl21]

I have a daughter and everyone asks how I can be so sad when I have her and I just wish they could understand that I'm not just sad.... No one ever understand

[Aryank in reply to Sunflower_girl21]

Yeah i can feel you. Hope we all get better.

[Tibby43]

I completely understand, I feel like that too & if we were more honest we are not the only ones. Just try to get that intention within yourself, I managed (very hard to do) to turn that attention back into myself to work hard get on myself and my duty. This probably had not help but defo doing my best to as I’ve been there is such a awful way x

[Grease1976]

I totally get you to be honest...I honestly sometimes I wish my life would be like that you know. I wish i didn’t get depression you know. It’s hard. But I’m here if you wanna talk .

[Grease1976]

100% your right...