Fear

[Godloves]

I have had many health issues and have declined rapidly with the day to day tasks this past year.I am constantly worring about the burden I will place on my husband. I am 65 and think often that life would be better if I was called home.I can’t seem to find joy in my life

[MMoth]

The joy of the Lord is our strength. Try to focus on what His joy is. It will come to you. I pray for blessings to fall upon you.

[raschroeder19]

I understand. I don't think your husband will think you are a burden. Have you talked to him about the way you feel?

[HopeandOptimism]

I am so so sorry for your health issues and your emotional turmoil. When you married, you married in sickness and in health. You promised each other to honor the covenant of marriage. This is all part of that covenant. This is what two married people do for one other. They are other-centered and they are there when things are hard, painful, difficult, burdensome. That is REAL love. Allow your husband to love you in these days. Allow him to be a presence and to share this with you. Allow him to comfort you and provide strength. Each day that you are here is because God wants YOU here. Embrace every day. You are not a burden. You are a child of God and you will walk through this. Allow Him to be with you and see the gift of your husband and the gift of your faith. You will be in my prayers. May you know you are loved, cherished and valued.

[HisChild4ever]

I am very sorry about your health issues and how you feel! Have you been diagnosed with depression by any chance? I believe that you have been a blessing to your husband and he would not want you to die. Does he know how you feel? There were many times in the past when I was very depressed and used to think it was better if I would be dead. It is hard to deal with that kind of feelings. I wish you could talk to a counselor about your hopelessness and your worries. God decided to put each one of us here on Earth. Each of us is very valuable to Him. We're here because He wants us here. You can share with us here, but if you want to you can find yourself a licensed therapist who can help you too. If you call 1-855-382-5433, which is an organization that has a staff of licensed professional counselors who listen, pray, and provide guidance to anybody who calls, someone will listen to you and give you referrals for Christian counselors in your area. I hope that God blesses you a lot and gives you His comfort and love every hour.

[Gentlespirit]

I understand where you are coming from and its exhausting to do day to day basics. My health issues are a struggle too. Just take one day at a time. Start doing little things and see where that will take you.

God knows your situation. Be patient believe and listen. Be still. God is listening .

When you e mail someone and the message is sent do you not wait for a reply or know that a message will be sent to you? You are Gods creation and He knows every part of you while you were yet being formed in your mothers womb. His love is so deep and vast there are not enough words to say except I would like for your heart and mind to connect with God in your own way. Close your eyes if you would like and let your spirit in your heart find expression and let what will come to go out.

My prayers are with you to find peace and healing and guidance. Take care.

[Gentlespirit]

Depression can be persistent. It can sneak back up on you before you realize it. Do you have coping skills or techniques to deal with it? Your not a burden. Remind yourself that your not a burden. Use self talk and think of the love. It's a struggle and theres no guarantee but think of yourself and your husband and just focus on the present. This moment. Breathe. Light a candle. Take a hot shower or bath. Draw.

Call a therapist or a hotline or a warmline. Call your pastor or 911 if its necessary.

Be still. Do not act or react to the point of no return. Be patient and kind with yourself. Do what you can.. It's ok to not be ok. Take care.