Pure Fear

Its hard to explain ...

Depression and anxiety all my life with a fear that makes me scared all the time ...

[JAYnLA]

Through therapy I've learned that my intense fear is old fear that I shoved down when I was much younger. It's just coming up now. It's not fun to work through but the benefits are... well... getting your life back. Do you have access to therapy?

[Hidden in reply to JAYnLA]

Im doing therapy and under meds for almost 7 years

[terriltwin2]

I know that fear can over come us and we can think of all kinds of things that we are fearful of. I have dealt with a lot of fear through my life. I just had to reappraise my thoughts and I just faced what I was fearing. Most of the time I found that what I feared was happening or going to happen was not as bad as my interpretation of things. When I came to face what was bothering me, things really did not turn out bad like I thought they were going to. I get myself all worked up and I am truly afraid, and when I face it or tell myself, I am afraid of this thing, I calmed down. Do you journal? I know for me this is a great way of releasing some of my fears. I write all of my emotions and feelings on paper and then I go back to what I have written and see if I really needed to fear? A counselor also told me to talk to my fear. She said " Just say, Oh you are going to do this to me today? or Sure just think that I am going to fear this today. These seem like stupid little things, but they did help me. Are you seeking any therapy for your depression and fear? It will help for you to have someone to speak with about your emotions and fears. The one thing that I have learned is " FEAR is a LIAR. " Thinking about you.

[Hidden in reply to terriltwin2]

Thanks for your Sympathy, Im under therapy but just started, but Im under meds for over 7 years, they kind of help but my suicidal thoughts still exist ...

[terriltwin2 in reply to Hidden]

I am happy you are in therapy. Give this time, it will help. To have some one professional to talk to is a great way to release some of the emotions and fears you are having. Have you spoke with your Doctor about side effects of the medicines you are taking? Sometimes the meds we have to take will have side effects that actually make us feel like you are feeling right now. I would ask the doctor about that. You are hear and you are doing the right thing by getting therapy so that is great and I am proud of you for sharing your story and who you are. I am inspired by your courage and strength to do this. It is a great step in the right direction and remember you are not alone and there is a purpose for you being here and a purpose for your life. You will have abundance of joy, it just takes some help which you are getting and some time.

[Hidden in reply to terriltwin2]

Im just surprised there are people like you here! such a beautiful support and care.

Yes He knows the side effect but since I started this meds my anxiety decreased half a way.

[Blacksmith67 in reply to Hidden]

Therapy is great. I did see a therapist but in South Africa it is very expensive.

Give attention to your medication, may be there is something better.

Have a look at the "Moodpath" app, I have just started with it.

The thing with me is that I am overly patient with medication "maybe it will start working tomorrow" it's very important to communicate with your Dr.

[marheart]

It's so difficult for me to understand about the fears that started about 5 yrs ago. Senior life is publicized as having a good time. Ha!

If I can't understand what I'm going thru, how could anyone else understand me.

I'm mostly home bound except for Dr. appts. as long as I can find someone to drive me there.

This is not living. It's dying. How have you made improvements that might help me?

[Hidden in reply to marheart]

Do whatever makes you feel so happy

You definitely need meds

[marheart in reply to Hidden]

Haven't found the path to happiness. Staying home alone is good/bad.

The torture that builds up during the hours and sometimes days about going out scares me into all day long attacks.

Concentration not there to do anything but the bare necessities of life. If there is such a thing as reincarnation, I must have been a terrible person in past lives.

[Hidden in reply to marheart]

Same thoughts as me, but there is always a tiny light in this darkness, believe me ...

[marheart in reply to Hidden]

Seems like many patients of anxiety and panic experience that same disconnect of searching for the tunnel to find the light.

Of course I want the magic button and magic cures. I'll share with everyone.

[Hidden in reply to marheart]

Hang in there, we all do that ...

[marheart in reply to Hidden]

It does help to know I'm not the only one, even tho the stats show over 400 million people reveal their suffering. Others don't go for help.

Big Pharma is making a fortune from us!

[marheart]

The talk therapist asks me what I'm afraid of.

It's everything. It's the fear of the unknown. It's the What If....

I know I have to control myself and can't control the outcome due to others involved. However, knowing it and dealing with it are scary too!

[Hidden]

Totally agree, I have the exact same symptoms but me personally take some cannabis to reduce that fear but temporary use.

[marheart]

Against a lifetime of negative reactions to Cannabis, I tried a very small dose, then increased it a few times. That made me sick, sicker and even more sick. Good grief I'm a mess! Drs. don't know what to do with me anymore.

I do agree with you to have others try it. Not the addictive type. I think it's called CBT.

[Hidden in reply to marheart]

Exactly for everyone is different