So I've been struggling with body image.... Help?

I've been struggling with body image since I was at least 6. It started in the ballet class because all the other girls were smaller than me. eventually, I stopped ballet and moved into Cheer. And I was too big, too small, and not flexible enough. Then I quit, I really didn't feel good enough. Then in middle school, everybody starting getting these bodies. I didn't get one and somebody started telling me I was fat. Next, I was too little everybody had boobs everybody had a butt and I was all skin and bones. Either my clothes didn't fit or they were too little so I started wearing oversized clothes. Up until after quarantine... I gained 40 pounds. I could not maintain weight over 100 and now I weigh around 139/140. so at first, I didn't notice it.. then my aunt said the exact words: "you walking around looking all fat and pregnant. remember what I told you." and even though she apologized I hear it all the time, and now when I try on clothes. all I see is ugly. so I started buying oversized clothes and it made it worse. also, I feel like all the weight did was expand my body outwards and in my stomach. I don't know. The worst part is I'm still growing. I don't want to buy lots of clothes that I feel nice in. And not be able to fit them in November. I was thinking of going back to the goodwill to get some nice pants I like again. I don't know I'm working hard on accepting myself and my situation and being content.

Also, I'm super lazy but I want to work out 😂. But my laziness always stops me 😂.

[MMoth]

I get it. I’ve struggled with body image my whole life. Ask yourself if you feel healthy? If yes, relax a bit. If no, start by taking walks in fresh air. Clear your head. Find emotional peace.

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I bet you are gorgeous , to me beauty doesn't mean weight , stop looking at yourself and say that all u see is ugly all you see is beauty all you see is confident .

and about working out if you want it you can do it I m lazy too when I first started I was forcing myself but after a while I satred being obsessed w it if i did it you can do it.

I really care about you

❤️ and I m here for you if you need help

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aww thank you!

[Iammesues]

People need to watch their mouths and be respectful, be kind. Life is hard enough. Your aunt is out of line. Your weight has nothing to do with your love, your openness, your contribution to society. She has the problem. A beautiful person is beautiful on the inside. She needs a reality check

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I am a heavy girl myself these days. But I wasn't always. Back when I was 35, I lost 50 pounds through going to Weight Watchers. It took me a year but I did it. I'm also a rather tall girl, I'm 5 ft. 9 inches, so I can weigh around 140 or 150 and not look heavy. I love the singer Meghan Trainor because she's made being a chubby girl work for her, and even the singer Jennifer Lopez really doesn't like it that people focus on her rear end, but look at her dance moves!!!! I'm not even going to mention how much I weigh now, but summer is coming. I'm trying to eat right these days and get some exercise, and my goal is to try to drop 20 pounds by the beginning of August.