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[pichon]

I grew up with a very dysfunctional family. My mother suffered from a bipolar disorder and my father was an alcoholic. I was raised with 7 other brothers and sisters who experienced traumatic events that have led us to live separate unfortunate lives. Because of the abuse, neglect, and lack of guidance, I grew up with a resentful heart. I shut down to those who care the most, I do not like to socialize, and I turned to medicinal drugs and alcohol just to take the edge off. I have been diagnosed with acute anxiety, and depression. I have been asked to consider being tested for PTSD. It has affected my intimate and social relationships. I feel like my mind is my poison and any emotion I feel has rotted me. I am currently seeing a therapist, I take my medication and I try to refrain from alcohol misuse. I take on hobbies to distract my mind and try to be more considerate to others. I am on a slow but progressive journey. I hope to become a wholesome person and enjoy the best that life can give me.

[kenster1]

hi welcome aboard sorry to read of your struggles hopefully being here helps.your situation sounds similar to my dad had many brothers and sisters his mum died in an accident at home his dad turned to drink and all the had to be fostered out.my dad turned to drink so did one of his brothers and sisters it also made for a difficult relationship with him and my mum he was old school and never sought help.glad your seeing a therapist and hopefully the beginning of a brighter future for you.

[Roxylox]

You sound positive despite your past difficulties. congratulations on making such progress. Good luck on your journey.