Ohh no!!

[Mumma_h]

My ex husband was psychologically very abusive to me . He msgd me regarding our suicidal son , said he dosnt give a f....k. Anyway I just msgd him calling him a m.......r f........r. I’m Christian and never speak like this !! I don’t want to be like him ever, but I just DID THAT !!! Feeling bad towards God and scared of his retaliation. I was soooo angry he said that about our son

[Hidden]

Sometimes we need to let it out. I am sorry about anything that is uncomfortable in your life. Life is filled with sorrow and pain.

[Mumma_h in reply to Hidden]

It happened so quickly!! He is the reason my son is suicidal, so I just saw red !!! I’ll learn from it . I have to tread carefully too as he may be being charged for domestic violence. I’ve never stood up to him before!! But when it came to my son , like I said ,I saw red . I’m not an angry person so that was a shock to me , especially towards him who I’m still scared of ..... life can be very painful but I never imagined my son would be in this way . Keeping strong and fighting for my boy and his life . I nearly lost him a few weeks ago . But he’s here so there is hope

[Hidden in reply to Mumma_h]

I’m proud of you. You have made the right step in a positive direction. No one should abuse you or your child. No one.

I say. I love you but I love me more. Practice saying these words and one can believe them and Remeber them, when anything or anyone becomes toxic or disrespect your boundaries you will be strong always.

Many empathy’s put others first and the habit seems impossible to break. Then, some people presume the goodness is a weakness to be used as a Matt. Not anymore.

[despowell]

God knows your heart and he knows we sometimes we react out of anger. Just repent and ask for forgiveness. He forgives us time and time again when we make mistakes. All he asks for us to do is try to be & do better. Once you do your part he will step in and do the rest! It’s a tough situation that you’re in so don’t feel bad for allowing yourself to be angry

[Mumma_h in reply to despowell]

Thankyou !! I feel bad to god , but I will ask for forgiveness, and I’ll try to believe hel forgive . No other words in that moment seemed enough for him . I wasn’t thinking about doing it , or planned it , just when he said that I just wrote and pressed send in a split second. Thankyou despowell ❤️

[Mumma_h in reply to Mumma_h]

I SHOULD NOT have used that word !! I feel terrible to God . I’m worried hel punish me via my ex and he will use it against me in some terrible way. He is a bad man , sooo abusive , he deserves it but I wish I used another word , not that . I will pray 🙏❤️that’s all I can do right now 🤗

[hypercat54 in reply to Mumma_h]

Well all I can say is if your god punishes you like that he can't be much cop! I thought god understood and knew everything? Why do you think he will punish you for one indiscretion? If he is going to punish anyone it would be your ex surely?

I agree with Hb. Block him and never contact him again. I think you said your son in an adult now? In that case I can't see why you need to have any contact with him again. Block him on everything is my advice.

[Mumma_h in reply to hypercat54]

Thanks hypercat, I don’t usually have ANYcontact at all. But our son is very very mentally unwell . He hurt himself in a very horrific way, I’m just going to say it , he cut his own throat , extremely lucky to be alive,psychiatric ward let him out 3 days later, and he ended up going to fathers. I had to send his father the medication prescribed,and the numbers for the mental heath team that was SUPPOSED to be looking after him . His father didn’t even take him to get his meds , didn’t make a single phone call, my son lost his phone his wallet... when he was found unconscious on a railway station 3 days after getting out of hospital, covered in blood and injuries. I played nice with my ex so he wouldn’t get angry and make some phone calls . My son is now missing again, for 4 days , phones off ,he said hel do it in the bush. He has NO friends, NO where to go . Unfortunately I do fear the worst . Everyone is just over him , I think that’s it now , he’s dead somewhere, he’s forgotten by all , hel either show up oneday or that’s it , he’s gone , no funeral no memorial no nothing, no one cares except me , they’ll tell me just don’t worry about it let him go . And I’ll never see him again, he’s just gone and that’s it

[Hb2003 in reply to Mumma_h]

Oh my goodness I’m so sorry 😞 my heart breaks for you if you need to vent please don’t hesitate to do so . Lots of hugs and support

[Hb2003]

Mumma_h Oh my goodness 😳😡 I’m so sorry this makes my heartbreak I can’t believe that he said that . Your ex husband will regret saying this I am not gonna say no more because my blood is sizzling 😤 . Your son has gone through so much because of his Tourette’s syndrome and his mental health issues this shocks me beyond words it’s sickening. I want to hug you so darn tight also BLOCK HIM seriously you will be thankful to not hear anymore of his bull crap and bullying and disgusting words .

[Hidden]

God knows your and his heart. When people hurt his children he does not take that kindly. God is going to punish him for hurting you and your son. I pray that you and your son are ohkay and that joy finds you guys.💕

[CoderMom]

If you lose your peace every time he says something hurtful, you will keep going around this mountain with him. If you want to move on, keep your peace. Let it go.

[Mumma_h]

Thanks so much everyone, for your replies 💕, it’s appreciated a lot. 😁💕