Been quiet lately...

[AK0424]

So I've kept quiet for a bit. Didn't want to bother everyone. Truth is, mainly since the pandemic (so for basically a year now) I've been feeling worthless, not welcome and not wanted. I want to believe everyone is just busy in their own lives to answer or reach out, but a part of me doesn't feel that's true and they just don't want to know me. My coworkers only talk to me if they need something. My friends only text when something is up, which isn't often. I was a part of a wrestling group and I feel that they forgot about me since I haven't been at training (even if that isn't true, I feel it). I post in the group page and get very few responses. I post online and get almost no responses. Others post and get a ton of reactions. I post to "famous" people online and get no response, like I'm some psycho weirdo. And they respond to others. I just feel alone. Unwanted. I just want someone to care. Someone who actually thinks about me and wonders if I'm ok. Especially without making me feel like I'm imposing or being too much. I want someone to miss me as much as I miss everyone else.

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I understand how you feel and want you to know that your not alone.

[Opportunity]

Aw... 🥰😍😀🥳. I just want to reach out and say that you seem perfectly worthy of welcome and acceptance to me! Your writing was clear and reasonable, which leads me to think that so are your thoughts. I totally know how you feel, and it stinks. This feeling like, wow, I am alone here. 😔. And it makes you have less vocal opinions and less free-wheeling conversations because you already feel like you’re somehow pushing people away. And you don’t want to offend... do I have that right? (You can say if I don’t... I don’t mind at all.). 😀🤩

[EndUser13]

I'm sorry, I know how awful it is to feel isolated from the world! In retrospect, I think the lockdowns were generally a bad idea, particularly for younger people. It's amazing that we have this great tool for communication and seem to ignore or misuse it more often than not.

I follow you on the concept of reaching out and not getting replies, it makes you feel invisible or like not even trying sometimes. Every now and then you'll get a great reply though and humans are social animals, we're meant to get together and party!

I have a close group of friends but ironically, the two most chaotically busy people I know are probably the only ones who really reach out to me and it means the world to me that they do. The rest I keep making an effort with because maybe someday they'll see me trying. In the meantime, I try not to let the silence get me down but it's rough!

I hope you keep reaching out and making an effort, if only with different folks/groups, and good luck with it!

[Expo123]

So sorry you are feeling this way AKO424. I understand you completely. In fact you pretty much described the way I feel much of the time. If you're like me you're a very sensitive person who is always there for people and just wants to feel like there are a couple of people out there who will show you that same kind of caring. I guarantee that it's not a case of people rejecting you but more that people just get immersed in their own lives and troubles. Is there any one friend you can reach out to and be totally honest with? Someone you could ask to keep in touch with you more regularly. I know that's hard and there's always a fear of sounding needy (that's a huge fear for me), but it might be worth it. People can be really clueless sometimes but just need to be asked and are then really happy and willing to be there and show some support. Don't forget you have all of us here on this site too. Don't ever feel like you are bothering us with your posts. We're here to support each other. 🧡

[mslucyann]

I am new here but I understand the pandemic took apart of all of us away from human touch and just the idea of just dropping by a friend or family with no touch , wear a mask ,etc. me i got to cleaning by home, starting listening to me ditations on utube Abide and mindfulness affirmations with music with my earbuds on my phone at night. since we can not go to library i found on a site called Libby through your local library u can listen to book for free all this came to me 2 months in the pandemic

[kvolm2016]

I'm sorry to read that you have been feeling this burden for so long. Even though it is hard, there does come a point when we have to express our true needs to someone that we think will be trustworthy with them. It's probably not all the social media contacts that you mention but one of the people that you actually had a relationship with before the pandemic. Do you feel like there is someone - coworker or from wrestling group or other friend who you trust to share this same need that you shared with us here? Other people are lonely too and sometimes it just takes one person being willing to be vulnerable first for other people to be willing to open up too.