Feeling uncomfortable with myself

[Xmmznz]

So lately i've been remebering a lot of things that happend in the past that have to do with me beign oversexualized from a very young age. All my relationships have failed because i get so uncomfortable whenever they turned our conversations sexual and i just left them. It makes me hate my body and i feel like they just see me as an object. I don't know how to deal with these feelings of disgust, and i think that it has to do with me beign exposed to sexuality when i wasn't supposed to. So i just wanted to get it out because is so hard to feel like i'm broken or not normal because all people my age look for is sex.

[Hidden]

How are you?

Maybe there is nothing wrong with you. Maybe you can wait there is no rush. Just because others are having it outside marriage it doesn't make it right. But I also think you should see a therapist so that when the time is right to have it you can be comfortable. You are not an object, ur body is meant to be appreciated but don't let pressure makes you do wrong things.

[Xmmznz in reply to Hidden]

Other than that i'm fine thanks! And you?

Also thank you so much i wll try no to feel rushed to do things i don't want. I will definitely try to see a therapist about it

[Hidden in reply to Xmmznz]

I really hope the therapist can help u

[KinokoNekoKun]

People are terrible. I am sorry you had to go through such a hard time and that its effected you. You are definitely not the one with the problem. People in this time only want sex before anything and that is sad to see. I agree with Zoom , you are not an object. If someone is not willing to wait until you're comfortable to get intimate that is 100% their problem. Continue taking your time and continue with self healing before even thinking about giving yourself to someone like that. I already know you are strong because you came on here to share your story. We are here for you and stand behind you. There are so many ways to love that does not involve intimacy. I hope that you can clear your mind from those awful thoughts fully one day but, for now just try your best to remember that you are no longer in that terrible situation and things are going to get better from here. Our minds can be so powerful but we are stronger and we have control over them. Once again, we are with you<3

[Xmmznz in reply to KinokoNekoKun]

Wow thank you so much! I really needed to hear that. I will continue to heal myself and let go of all those awful things. I hope to find someone who is willing to wait for me to be comfortable with them again, thank you so much<3

[KinokoNekoKun in reply to Xmmznz]

Always here<3

[kvolm2016]

You are wise to recognize that your past does affect your current relationships. And being willing to work through this with a therapist is really important. The emotional health that you gain will then give you the confidence to be in healthy relationships. Invest in working on you and the other part will follow!

[Xmmznz in reply to kvolm2016]

Thank you so much, i am looking foward to go to therapy