I'm a beat away from a nervous breakdown.

[wittsend0]

I have been needing to throw up all day.

I want to curl up in ball and die.

My landlord is desperate to throw me out so he can sell. My partner is completely in denial. I gave into her denial. After 5 years of trying to work towards moving somewhere else.

Having worked all my life and saved and done all the right things. I am about to be homeless, because unemployed means no-one wants to rent to me.

Because Covid won't let them remove anybody from their rentals, there are almost no places for rent, and in Los Angeles, that means nothing affordable.

IF I could wish myself to death I would do it. But so far that hasn’t worked. I have tried.

It’s the perfect storm, I'm too old, my cost of living has become ridicules even with out any extras, travel , dinning out, entertainment, Just food, roof and insurance for over 18 months is eating me alive. America has become nothing but the land of the greedy taking everything from everyone who isn't worth 100s of millions or more. What happened to the land of the free, home of the brave who looked out for and took care of each other? What happened to morals, what happened to common decency? What happened to friends whom stood by your side? When did it become hell on earth?

I really can't take it any more.

I am completely lost.

[b1b1b1]

Try to reach out for social services in your area. xxx

[Catsamaze ADAA Volunteer]

Hi wittsend. I have wondered myself about when things started to change. And why. They will change again for the better. I know you don’t feel like you can wait for that to happen but please hang on so you can experience it. As for the practical matters and basic needs of eating and having a roof over your head, I don’t know LA but it sure seems that you would qualify for assistance. And the stimulus check(s) may be a drop in the bucket but they will help at least a little. In the meantime we are here 24/7, as you probably know...

[penguins123]

Dear wittsend0: Maybe you find an agency In LA that helps older people. I live in San Diego and they have organizations that help people over 55 who need help: Area on Aging, Local community resources, Jewish Family Services, etc. Also, here we have money for "rental assistance" that our city is giving out. I think it might be coming from the State so see if there is rent assistance for you. Good luck and please continue to have hope because things can change in a day.

[wittsend0 in reply to penguins123]

Thanks, So far, The monies from the FED and State, are adding insult to injury. Sure something is better than nothing. But billionaires are making billions more and they give enough for food, maybe, for a month or two. You can't live on it.

This is the first time in my life I have taken a penny from anybody. Unfortunately it is a penny. My savings are burning up.

My land lord gets paid so I Don't kill my Fico, which of course is mandatory to find another rental, that I cant afford either. All the towns I was looking to move too, now have City dwellers, like myself, fleeing to and driving up the real estate and rental prices as well. It is truly a perfect storm. cant find a job, Cant find a place to live, Can't sell anything because no one is buying.

Its pathetic that I want to die so all this can be over with and even with all the stress I cant just pass in my sleep. Seriously the universe has an obscene sense of humor. I just wasn’t it to be over. And Since Covid I lost weight and lowered my cholesterol numbers so I should Live Longer! ugh.

[penguins123 in reply to wittsend0]

Well, I hope you can find some simple pleasure in life each day to make you feel that there is still hope.....You never know when things will change for the better. The stimulous checks are coming soon too.

[SirGrits]

Hey wittsend0 have you thought about reaching out to a church community? You probably won't find any solutions, but you'll definitely be surrounded by helping hands. That's quite a bit better than what one would find in local Govt and way above what we'll ever get from Congress.Prayers bro.