I'm depleted now after my latest attempt to be heard. I'm alone in place where I'm "over qualified for my position in life", lol, meaning I have a very active educated mind, and I have so much to offer in my insight to our community, but again and again I come up against a brick wall.
When I try to reach my city councilors or anyone, no one listens or responds. When I speak on issues that are being ignored, like police misconduct, and that are very personal to me, and are killing people and need to be addressed, I get the same response. Mental health? They think I'm in crisis and need help.
I'm trying to get them to understand that I want to help, because they really don't see whats wrong with their methods, and I do because I've worked in mental health, because I've researched things here.
I'm saying this because their are 3 people who consider themselves to be "allknowing". They are pompous, self important, they whip out their unused credentials PhD, etc, to make them seem knowledgable and important, but they have not done a damn thing for the community.
Their very behavior and methods show little respect for people, their "solutions" are out of touch and offensive.
But they can just put themselves on calendars and give presentations, etc
Meanwhile I can't even get them to call or meet with me about what I've proposed.
I have issues with problems that are hurting people. These 3 pompous clowns have solutions that will help no one.
Years of being silenced and stepped on is killing me. Yet, for me to contribute and make a difference in things is what keeps me alive another day. Its what I need to be able to meet people, use my skills,, and do things i care about. But people seem to be offended.
Yet when 3 pompous empty self important people rudely demand their time, they get it, and then practically bow down to them. I mean first of all their pompous lack of manners or regard for peoples time, or for the community, should be a red flag of how disingenuous they are. Meanwhile, my humility is trample into humiliation.
I have been disrespected, deprived of my dignity when incompetent mental health nurses sent police to my house to have me "taken away against my will" forced to be subjected to their abuse, etc.
I can't take this. I can't just fade to black here and die. I need to move, but I've been deteriorating over time with the layers of trauma these incompetent authorities have added, and my aloneness can't figure it out.
I dont know what else to do because I keep trying anything and everything, and its always that universal disregard for anything I say. Its like no one here understands what was basic knowledge everywhere else I've lived. You don't keep feeding problems, and listening to people who make up answers. Its like they don't know how to figure things out. By the way, the statistics are proof that we are at the bottom of state rankings for everything. Yet, ? I mean, I just don't understand why I'm invisible.