No feelings or emotions

I have no contact with my feelings or emotions and when I do it is negative or some form of avoidance. I really don't know what to do about it but to face it head on and that gets exhausting and feels like such a long road. Is it possible to be content or at least neutral while on the journey of self exploration and mental balance while still figuring stuff out? I feel like it has to be done out of urgency, anticipation and lots of patience and pain. Maybe that is the difficult truth because it is one hell of a journey. And if it is the truth well damn I'll get myself as ready as possible (with some mini breaks otherwise I just feel like it's to overwhelming). Thanks for listening to my rant, any feedback on emotions and intuition, it is greatly appreciated, one love!

[Trying1268]

Hi Ah-Cho199,Not feeling every emotion is ok. You don't need to feel every emotion in order to work on your mental health. It may even be easier to do it while you are in an emotionally neutral state.

What I mean by that is, sometimes we don't want to do certain parts of therapy because we worry about the emotional part of it.

So long as you put in the work, and be strong, you got this.

Be Well.

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I need to reflect more upon neutrality and how I can use it to go towards the light hearted awesome feelings. Thank you!!!

[chefcc]

It is good to be aware of what we are feeling whether it’s good or bad. I understand it can be a lot to juggle emotions, figuring out stuff out and what needs to go first and next. Just breathe and remember that it takes time for things to grow and heal. I have definitely felt that way too and it’s ok, and you are going to succeed

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Thanks a lot for your response, sometime I fear whether I will be able to move forward and instead back out of all this growth stuff but I really don't want to and in my opinion is the only really valuable thing. Thanks for the encouragement I really really appreciated it.

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That is pretty much how I feel and it is really stressful. Thanks for understanding and maybe we can video conference sometime!