Being swallowed by emotions

[Afaaf]

Today is really hard for me I keep bottling my emotions and they are hurtful like real pain and I know that people will tell me that I will be okay and that I have to fight this but I don't know how, all I do is stay home, my heart beats so hard and I feel like my fingers are shaking, I don't know how to breakthrough this cycle am my own destruction

[fauxartist]

are you in therapy or on meds right now? and I'm sorry your going through this...many others here are struggling with similar things and it would be a great way to be able to relate to other members by reading their posts and comments and find out what some are doing to help cope....

[Afaaf in reply to fauxartist]

Yeah I don't know anyone here and it will be real nice if I found friends here or people to follow,no am not on any meds or even seeing a therapist

[gogogirl in reply to Afaaf]

You might also contact the NAMI helpline ( 800)-950-6264 if in the USA>. You do not need to bottle your emotions- sometimes we have to let them out - you're human. I like this site- some posts are more relatable than others, but the main issue is that people are letting other sides of being human be seen.

[Afaaf in reply to gogogirl]

Am. Not in USA but thank u for the tip

[gogogirl in reply to Afaaf]

I hope you can find something comparable in your country. Also, I hope you can contact your doctor and get some advice there as well. keep coming to this site.

[Afaaf in reply to gogogirl]

I don't have a doctor am 20 with no job and uni and I live with a single Mom and I don't know how to help myself, I come to this site to at least not feel the only person who has these negative crazy thoughts

[gogogirl in reply to Afaaf]

Glad you came here- it sounds like a like to cope with at such a young age. I hope you can find a doctor- have you talked to your mom about it?

[Afaaf in reply to gogogirl]

No way,she herself deals with a lot of things I don't want to bother her

[jessmn62312]

I am also new to this website. I just started 3 days ago. I too have severe anxiety along with PTSD, social anxiety, panic attacks and depression. It has helped a lot reading other peoples stories and hearing feedback. It helps knowing you are not the only one going through it. Feel free to follow my page. I am just starting to get professional help. I have never been on any kind of daily medication. I have only taken Xanax for my panic attacks which helped but never solved the problem. It sounds like you are having panic attacks though. I can keep you updated on what my doctor does for me, maybe it will help you. But the worst thing you can do is not talk about what is going on with you. Trust me, i did it for 20 years and it only got worse. We are all here to listen and try to help. Judgement free!

[Afaaf in reply to jessmn62312]

Thank u even though u are a total stranger,i will definitely follow u and your updates will be appreciated, I recently self diagnosed myself with depression and anxiety cause I researched my symptoms and it is just hard for me to accept that I have this disease because I don't know how to deal with it, had these symptoms way back in the years but just thought them to be a phase in my life and this year has been real and raw and I hide it from my family cause am afraid they will ridicule me

[jessmn62312 in reply to Afaaf]

i know exactly how you feel. I hid mine as well. I thought there was something wrong with me. i was so embarrassed and ashamed that i wasn't "normal", what ever that is. But you will learn that there are more people out there suffering with the same thing. Everyone deals with it in their own way.

[jessmn62312]

Also, please look into talking with a doctor. You can start by seeing your primary care doctor. Let him/her know what is going on. Usually they can point you in the right direction. Or find a local psychiatrist. It will take time, but you have to start somewhere. You will only torture yourself by not doing anything about it.

[Afaaf in reply to jessmn62312]

I don't have any doctor and the money to pay him

[jessmn62312 in reply to Afaaf]

Do you have any type of health insurance? Some doctors will wave the copay fee. There are also walk in clinics that might be able to help. You just need to do a little research.

[Afaaf in reply to jessmn62312]

It is OK I know u are trying to help me and I appreciate u for that

[roseofmyheart85]

I am sorry you are feeling this way and you are not alone. I would speak to a professional and or you doctor. Speaking with a counselor can help you navigate your feelings. Have you considered a local support group? I will be praying for you. Take Care and God Bless!