Tw mention of suicide

[LunaK92]

I haven’t been doing too well . I am at a point where it’s just too overwhelming and getting to be unbearable. I don’t really have much of a support system . I’ve been wanting to just check myself into the hospital because I feel like that is the best thing right now . Unfortunately, I can’t do that either because my husband works overnight shifts and with this whole pandemic we can not afford to lose any sources of income at the moment . He wouldn’t be able to stay home with our children without missing work. The other people that I do know also has work or school . I have no one to help .I’m just stuck and I don’t know what to do anymore . I feel like I’m just left to suffer and I don’t know how much more I can take of this . I don’t know what to do . I feel like there is only one way out of this . I’m backed into this corner . The only thing that is holding me back from this option are my kids . They are such amazing kids and deserve the world . They have their whole lives ahead of them and are destined for greatest . I don’t want to miss that and I want to continue to be there to support them and cheer them on . I know if I was to end it all and just end myself it will hurt them and I don’t want to do that to them. It’s like I’m just backed into a corner and I feel like that is the only option to end all this pain . I don’t know what to do . I really need to get help and the only way is to check myself into a hospital or just end it .

[Mcai]

Hi Luna, your post sounded as if I was writing it myself. I’m here for you if you need someone to talk to. About anything pm me

[lillyofthevalley37]

Tell your husband how you feel, that you are thinking of ending it all

[FearIsALiar]

Hi Luna..sorry you’re dealing this this. It sure sounds like a difficult time for you. Keep going, don’t give up! Your children need you. I’ve lost friends to suicide and it so true that it doesn’t end the pain...it just passes it onto someone else. Suicide is NOT the answer. I know it feels like it but trust me, its not.

Please keep us updated. We care and we want to offer support. Is this just depression you are dealing with as well? I know how much of a struggle it can be. Please let your husband know how you’re feeling so he can offer his support and make things a bit easier for you.

WE ARE YOUR SUPPORT SYSTEM LUNA!! YOU ARE SO LOVED AND SO AMAZING AND YOU CAN GET THROUGH THIS!!!!!! 💞💞💞

[FearIsALiar in reply to FearIsALiar]

If you ever want anyone to talk to or just to listen feel free to message me

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I can tell you from my experience as being a person with bipolar disorder who has been hospitalized in psyche wards MANY times, going to a psyche ward doesn't always help, if that's what you're thinking about. Before you resort to that, try calling a crisis line like the Samaritans or one you know of near you. If you're thinking about harming yourself, talk to your husband about it, maybe do something like tell him to hide away sharp objects like knives and scissors and keep poisons away from you if you're thinking about drinking something to commit suicide. Have him regulate any meds your taking and hide them from you so you don't overdose on anything. Keep alcohol out of the house. And if you don't have one already, consider finding a therapist you can talk to once a week, from a site like Better Help. Going to a hospital can be traumatic, make that your last resort.

[Gentlespirit]

Some places have a sliding fee scale based on income. I was recently reminded of grounding techniques the importance of meditation and music and self reflection. I have a few physical pictures of my kids now grown to keep me grounded. There are warm helplines and crisis lines available now and also telehealth over the phone or zoom now to help you or the ER. Help is available in person at hospital or over the phone or computer please please take care of yourself and know we care and its ok to ask for help.

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Hi sweetie i hope your ok its so damn hard at times i totally understand the fear depression and hopelessness your feeling but its all a lie dont listen to that voice in your mind when we are depressed everything channels through a depressing mind set if you get medication that helps balance u out after a while u will think omg im so much better now im starting to feel less depressed are u on any meds at all??? You children love u so does your husband your worth so much hang in there hunny xxxx

[Sleeplessme]

Take a step back and think about this logically... You can't check yourself into hospital because you're needed there, so you're contemplating suicide. Well, that would be worse!

You're on the right track realising that your kids need you. That's a great thing. That's the reason suicidal thoughts didn't linger with me too long.

Another way I looked at it ... If I die now, that's it. No more pain, maybe, but no more fun either. Anything could happen tomorrow, my life could change dramatically. What will my daughter become? Who will I meet? Where will I go? So much exciting stuff to think about. Do I want to miss all that?

As much as I know how you feel, and believe me I do .. get those thoughts out of your head. Talk to your family, especially your husband, and get help. There's plenty of help available.