Suicide: NOT The Answer

[Ambien1711]

I want you to know a few important things...…..

1. JUST BECAUSE you do not know/have not found the ANSWER does not MEAN that it isn't out there. It is and somewhere out there, somebody somewhere has found it. Maybe it's in a book. Or something. You will find it!

2. It's been PROVEN that energy CANNOT get destroyed, it can ONLY change form. Your problems will NOT end if you end your life. You will still exist in some form. I once read of a girl who tried suicide and was told by God that if wanted to stay in heaven that time, she would still have to come back and relive her same problems until she conquered them.

3. SOMEBODY, actually, A LOT of people, want you here.

4. I've tried it and I ended up in a 14 hr coma and suffered severe brain damage. I now have trouble with everyday things. It is actually REALLY hard to kill yourself and you might actually get pretty messed up or disabled if you try and (and you will fail) and then your life will be harder.

5. There are FRIENDS you haven't met yet. Stay for them.

6. You are a CREATION of LIGHT. And the LIGHT loves you! It is ALWAYS working for your BEST INTEREST and that does NOT involve suicide.

I wish you well my friend. Stay, this is your home!

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Call 1-800-273-8255 in the US.

[Ambien1711 in reply to Hidden]

Thank YOU!

[Sprinkle1]

Good Post, I tried it twice and was caught both times, the clinical depression is So awful, I just came out of a 3 year trip thru hell. Yes we need extra special help, love and support. I have a wonderful therapist who gives me, love, encouragement and big hugs. I am on a new medicine and it is working, I pray it lasts the rest of this life, I am 78 now and happy to be alive, last time I tried suicide and failed, at age 46 I made a promise to myself "Suicide is not an option". In my next life I hope to be a much healthier person. So to all of you that suffer, we are out here, I offer love and support. There is a No. you can call 24/7 "988", Know your brain will get well, mine has been thru it several times and I have made it this far. Sending love and Big Hugs.......

[Ambien1711 in reply to Sprinkle1]

That is very sweet of you to inject a dose of your love to the world!! I am so glad you are still here! We are ALL special. I am glad that you have a good therapist and are on a med that works! I have yet to find those things! But I am getting through! Thanks to ppl like you, Sprinkle1, the world spins on love. I am always here for you, as well. Those of us who encourage also need encouraging. I am 34 and wonder where Ill be at 78?! Who knows? I have tachycardia but am on a med and am very optimistic. I will have a full-grown adult daughter at that age! Oh my god help me! lol ; ) Smiles!

[Hidden]

Thank you, my friend!!!

I have Restless Legs Syndrome, which is a truly devilish neurological syndrome. As if the torture wasn't enough, there is an evil side effect to a certain class of drugs used to treat this that is unfortunately quite common. The side effect is called augmentation and is when the drug quits working and actually augments the condition. I unfortunately went through this 5 years ago. In my long wait to get into see a neurologist and switch to a different medication, I went through 7 sleepless months and very nearly ended my life so the torture would end.

When you say the body finds energy boy, are you correct about that! After the first month of no sleep, I fully expected my heart to give out (I actually begged it to). But it wouldn't. If you ask me, the energy I was able to keep when it should've failed big time was MIRACULOUS!! I actually remember a nurse at the hospital telling me that the body doesn't let us give up and replying to her, "I noticed" and "yeah well, can you tell my body to because this SUCKS!"

I'm glad to still be here!!!!

[Ambien1711 in reply to Hidden]

Wow! What an INCREDIBLE Story! I am so glad you are still here! I am so sorry for what you have been through and what you continue to got through. You are strong, my friend! Glad to be on here with you! : )

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Sorry you had to go through that. That is a huge failure in medical treatment. I dont know too much about restless leg syndrome. What is that like?

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Thank you and yes, it sure is! The last I read, researchers have dismissed dopamine agonists (the drug class with this side effect) as the first line of treatment because of how common augmentation is. I am so glad!!!!!

RLS is absolute HELL!! It's the devil incarnate. Mine is pretty much controlled at the moment with a patch I wear on my skin and change out every 24 hours. I am so glad that it is!!

Here is a video of an "attack" (that's what I call it because it literally feels like an attack). This is not me, but the "attack" this woman has sums up what it's like. These movements can often be strong enough to drive one out of bed. Please note that this is not a comfortable video to watch. I could only watch it long enough to know that it was a perfect one to show.

youtu.be/yV6hBEA0vjM(Not working as expected?)

[Ambien1711 in reply to Hidden]

That must be awful! My husband has this (but not bad like you do!) He is not the take meds type or go to the doctor type but just as a curious question, if his gets worse (because it DOES already affect him trying to sleep) do you know a medicine he should ask his doc about? You must be extremely sleep-deprived? I am but for different reasons. It is hard. I am sorry you have to go through that. We all have our battles. I have had many and then some. I just try and be thankful they are not worse. Like being in a concentration camp. We are only given the battles we are strong enough to handle! ; ) You can do this!

[Hidden in reply to Ambien1711]

Tell your husband I'm sooooo sorry!

The meds used to treat this syndrome: dopamine agonists (DA) , alpha-2 ligands and low dose opioids. Although the name Restless Leg Syndrome is the name that stuck in the medical community, it does have a more official sounding name called Willis Ekbom Disease.

RLS is unfortunately known as being a progressive syndrome. (🤫 don't tell my legs). Despite the name making it sound like only the legs are affected, it is really a huge misnomer. RLS can affect up to the whole body in some. I have it in my right arm, face and back as well as both legs. I think maybe they call it Restless legs because the legs is where it originates. I get vibrations in my face and back every so often. I can also get horrendous movement in my right arm.

I have a weighted blanket that I invested it as help (along with soooo many other things) for the legs. The blanket should be very heavy, but it's not on a bad leg night. The legs just act like a construction crane lifting it up and down. Sometimes I wake to find it on the floor and other times I hear this "oomph!", which means that my legs had decided to share the entire thing with my husband.

One time my sweet doggy sat on my legs near my ankles as a way of helping, only to be freaked out when his body lifted off the bed.

[Ambien1711 in reply to Hidden]

SO you are taking peeps for a ride! How funny and great that you can see a comical side to all this. I did not know all this about RLS. Thanks for educating me. Education is very important. I had no idea that it was progressive or that you can have it in other parts of the body! Wow! Thank you for your post. As I will get my husband the help he needs. I will be telling him about this. It is much appreciated. ; ) I have heard a lot of good things about the weighted blankets, like how they help a lot of things like insomnia. However, I get really hot and am in FL so not so sure how that would but I have considered getting one. I guess Amazon sells some good ones? And that's great that you invest in your health; it is always worth it! Thanks! ; )

[Hidden in reply to Ambien1711]

You're welcome😃

As far as needing to have humor, I'd go insane if I didn't have any.

My weighted blanket is actually from sensorygoods.com.

[kenster1]

the house I live in now looks directly down to my last attempt I wasn`t getting on with my dad everything in life was falling apart I took some of my dads medication bought some cider and sat under a bit of bush.it was supposed to be my last day.i ate all the tablets drank most of my cider and went to light my cigarette but I never had a light so walked a few streets to get one.a police van stopped and asked my name I told them I thought I was getting arrested for the fall out with my dad but they knew I had taken his tablets so called an ambulance.about 5 minutes away from the hospital I told them to let me out as I felt ok but they wouldn`t.I felt ok in the hospital bed but then everything changed I felt myself slip away everything was becoming more hazy like and blurred I was heading for the other side.next thing I remember was being brought back to life with pumps on my chest my dad and sister in the room and a nurse saying you gave us a fright and I was being sick for what seemed like an eternity but I made it and that was my last serious attempt.I have had plenty more reasons to give up but I chose to live no matter how sxxt life gets.

[Ambien1711 in reply to kenster1]

Wow! That is quite a story. Sounds like you were in a great deal of turmoil. Well, I am glad you survived! I grew up really close with my dad but over him not cutting out my horribly abusive mother (now, this is when they had already divorced for 10 yrs!), we became estranged. He died while we were not speaking and I did not even know he was sick. It has left me heartbroken. I wish like anything I would've been there, and had I known, I would've. Sorry. I am not trying to make you sad. Just hadn't talked of it in awhile. I know how hard it is on your LIFE when you are close to a parent but things go awry. It is hard. Is your dad still around and have you mended the relationship? I hope so. But sometimes there are obstacles where you can't. It sounds like you must've been close at some point or else the unraveling would not have affected you? You are right, we DO have many reasons to give up. But we have a choice! And it is very hard to keep going but SO WORTH IT. Glad you are here my friend!

[footgo]

Thank you Ambien1711

We all need help, one way or another, all at different levels of pain / discomfort. Mental or physical, some both. We are on this forum to help and be helped, take care of yourself now, no escape until it is our turn, l am great believer in this theory!

[Ambien1711 in reply to footgo]

Your welcome! So glad to hear that you are a proactive believer in good mental well-being! ; )

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I have also heard that if you end yours life you have to come back and do it all again,....no thanks!