What can I do to feel better about myself?

[Jordanzmom3]

I am having a hard time this year. The 17th of Dec is the 6 year anniversary of my father passing away, I have an ex boyfriend who was my first love in high school reconnect with me last year but he is always putting me down and always pointing out what I am always doing wrong. We broke up after only 4 months because he lied to me and used me for money, but I am still talking to him over the phone after12 months. My self esteem is dropping from being lonely, I'm 44 without any children and I'm scared that I wont get married or have a child. I'm just freaking out with life and Covid is not helping me. What can I do to feel better about myself?

[lillyofthevalley37]

Pamper yourself and get beauty treatments Have you ever thought about fostering children ?

[Jordanzmom3 in reply to lillyofthevalley37]

I did, but my living situation changes almost every other year, and I am single with a low income. I really don't fit the profile of someone that the state would let take care of a child. and it breaks my heart everyday.

[NorwegianWood in reply to Jordanzmom3]

Concerning fostering - I have fostered children and there were many working class fostering families who were with the fostering agency. It's worth contacting an agency and offering yourself.

If your old friend persistently puts you down, there is little possibility of it becoming a long-term nurturing relationship. Many people involve themselves in community clubs/societies/churches to open possibilities of meeting people but primarily to enrich life and enlarge their friendship group.