Struggling and feel stupid

[GreyandBlue]

I am struggling alot at the moment. This year has been awful as I know it has for many. I couldn't leave my house without having panic attacks and didn't leave my house for 6 months. Finally got to a place where I could get a job and start getting income again and start to feel "normal". My anxiousness has been really high again and everything causes me to have an anxiety attack. Have to go on a week vacation that I don't want to go on, but it's better than being home by myself (which isn't a good idea). My family doesn't understand, they try, but they don't. I'm just annoying, overreacting, and a control freak. I'm currently on paroxetine and its not working. I don't know what to do and what will help me be in a healthy place but not hold me back. I feel stupid because there are people who have it way worse than me and I feel silly for complaining. Uggh I wish I didn't have to deal with this and just turn this part of my brain off.

[blueorganic1021]

You definitely should not feel silly for describing your true feelings. You are brave for doing so, because so many people keep their feelings buried inside and it’s not good in any way, and it usually leads to an eventual eruption of some sort which is never good.

I’m sorry you are experiencing such a difficult time right now. If the medication you are currently taking is not effective for you then definitely schedule an appointment with your prescriber and discuss this with them. Hopefully they can try something different that would be more helpful for you.

It is very hard for people who have never experienced anxiety and/or depression to fully understand what it’s like. They may have the best intentions in trying to, but until they have personally experienced it they just simply have nothing to compare it to in order to fully empathize and relate.

That’s what is so great about this community is we do know, and we can definitely relate, and each time we can empathize with one another, it actually helps us just as much as it does the one we are empathizing with. For that, I think we can all be grateful, that we have access to such a wonderful platform in which we can all support each other.

Try to hang in there friend, and know that things will get better, even if it doesn’t seem that way right now. Hope you can feel some relief very soon and that you are able to find a medication that is beneficial for you.

Wishing you all the best. Hugs 💙

[GreyandBlue in reply to blueorganic1021]

Thank you! I really appreciate your reply 💞

[Reading_Rando]

Just because other people might have worse material circumstances than yours doesnt mean that your feelings don't matter. Everyone's feelings matter, while some people have it materially worse, we can't say any one person's feelings are less important than anyone else. Your feelings are imporant because they are yours. Your valuable, valid, and you matter.