Just venting. Christmas sadness.

[Micafe]

I'm so far away from my family, my friends and my country.

Before Covid-19 I used to travel at least twice a year. The last time was last March. Actually, my flight back was the very last one that was allowed to leave that country. That was also the last time I saw my people. I miss them so much!!

It's been very hard with the pandemic and it's getting much worse. If it weren't for it, I would be there at this time of the year, as usual.

I'm feeling so depressed that I really want to die. I am very sick and I have the feeling I will never go back to my country nor see my family again.

All I want to do is cry, cry, cry... I'm desperate, life has no meaning to me anymore. Nothing attracts me.. 🥺

I hope you all have a happier Christmas than me. 🎄🎄🎁

Just venting... 😢😭

[Marysblue]

Can you videochat with them?

[Micafe in reply to Marysblue]

Yes. It actually makes me feel worse. I'm always in touch with them but I want to be with them, give them hugs, feel them... Does it make sense?

😔

[Micafe in reply to Marysblue]

They have each other there, they do things together... I can't.

[Dolphin14]

I'm so sorry you are without your family. I understand that face time and Zoom just don't cut it. It's so good to be able to communicate this way.But, there is a huge loss and disconnect when we can't spend time together, touch each other, hold each other.

I don't know any words to make this better. Just know I understand your feelings completely.

[Micafe in reply to Dolphin14]

Hi Dolphin14

Yes! That's exactly how I feel. Thank so much for understanding and for your nice words.. 💖 Best regards.