Depression anxiety

[Melaxx]

Im in that bad place again , I feel completely helpless and overwhelmed, my stomach is burning and in knots , nausea, sickness, restless, I can’t watch tv hate everyone especially now all happy adverts of Xmas cheers, I’m in bed at 7 pm awake most of the night . This morning I got up get dressed to go out , looked myself in the mirror and thought nah you look terrible sat all day just thinking , trying to do something but I couldn’t. The problem I have to travel next Monday on my own ( train, plane) I’m not sure I can, I cannot even pack my suitcase . I’m totally alone , my husband passed , my son lives with his gf , I should go to visit my mother on Monday but I can’t be bother , the only person who cares about me is an 80 year old woman , I’m scared incase something happens to her ,I’m so selfish I want to go before her , I don’t want the pain anymore . Sorry 😐

[Hidden]

I was in my bad place yesterday.

The mental drain puts me in bed early...where I sleep and wake up hourly.

And your mother isn't the only person that cares about you...I care about you.

You matter to me.

You matter.

If you want or need to talk...I'm here.

[Melaxx in reply to Hidden]

Oh thank you , how do you cope with it , I find it particularly hard at the moment

[Hidden in reply to Melaxx]

Well to be honest...yesterday I struggled...then I cried uncontrollably.

And finally I came here and posted.

The community's love and kindness got me through the worst. I am far from perfect, but knowing you're not alone...that someone cares helps me.

In general, I try to work outside every day that I can. Being outside and getting some exercise help both my sleep and my appetite.

There will always be bad days.

But there are goid days too.

I...we are here on any kind of day you're having!

[chinaandback]

Hi. I can relate to both of you. Sometimes you can feel so alone but we are never really alone. There are so many others who know how it feels. Help is just a call, post, text, away. @Melaxx I'm sorry you are struggling. I had lost my job months ago and all I wanted to do was sleep. I have since gotten another job and try to fill my schedule which forces me to get out of bed. It helps. Are you receiving treatment? If not, have you thought about calling a counselor? I have been that route and it really helps. I'm sorry about your husband. Maybe there is a support group in your area for those who are grieving. A good place to start is a church or a health facility. (((hugs)))

[Melaxx in reply to chinaandback]

Hi , thank you for your support means a lot to me, I did try counselling but wasn’t for me , I started meds a week or so ago , they told me I’ll be feeling the effect in 2/3 weeks ( Prozac 20 mg) I’m going to take a day at the time and see what’s happen . 😊

[Strongest123]

Hello. I’m sorry to hear how you’re feeling. Are you currently seeing a therapist? Are you on any meds? How long ago did your husband pass? I’m sorry, about your husband. Samson