I have major depressive disorder and it has been really bad since May 2019. Meds, psychotherapy, TMS...nothing has helped. I feel like I’m passively drowning—I have no motivation to help myself. I just want to care again. I don’t shower, keep my apartment tidy/clean...it’s so bad. I feel hopeless and can’t imagine how things are going to get better.
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Hello and welcome to a supportive group! That's rough what you're going through and I'm sorry, but it does get better. I know it sure feels like it doesn't, but it does. Take one day at a time. If all you do is shower one day, know that it's enough. Maybe you can make a schedule for yourself. You could set aside maybe 30 minutes to clean. Or you could take a room a day. Make sure to schedule in rest time.🙂
In my opinion psychotherapy alone doesn't work that great. Meds, again in my opinion, are the only therapy that really has a chance of working. Remember it can take weeks or even a month or two for the meds to work. (Psychotherapy can help a bit but not by itself.)
Also if you can just start with only a very limited goal such as taking a shower. A nice long shower! Keep in your mind that the shower is all you will accomplish. If you think about everything at once you will be overwhelmed into inaction.
Good Luck!
The first things first, you are not alone. Wow, I remember those feelings. I can still experience some of the misery when I become complacent, not continuing to put in the work. I use many tools, one is the Wellness Recovery Action Plan . When depression took me down the rabbit hole it was about six years for me to shower at one time in my life. A peer offered me a chance to go on a picnic and little did I know it was at a local beach. I was an avid swimmer and having the willingness to (that's the work) and reconnect to something I had a passion for was and continues to be a catalyst to my wellness. No longer is life about getting rid of but how do I live better with who I am. Please continue reaching out life does get better
Hi, I hope you find this online community helpful. There are lots of listeners and encouragement here. Remember depression is a liar, it tells you that nothing will ever change, but don't believe it. There is always hope. Small steps, and don't give up! All the best.
Hello
I truly feel you. I did TMS twice. I've been on Prozac for a year and a half that helped me a bit. I feel hopeless and helplezs.
Are you med resistant?
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