I just need help

[Olive18]

I am struggling with my entire life, my family is 300 miles away ,my parents have my daughter cause i can't seem to financially support her.i live with a boyfriend who is negative about everything and constantly talking about dying and hating life.this has caused me to consider suicide. I can't get out of bed or get motivated,my faith has even been somewhat dismissed. I am full of guilt and self loathing and i have a hard time talking about my feelings,i was brought up to not share personal things with people. I feel completely hopeless.please anyone help me,thank you

[PT81]

Hi Olive18. I’m sending you positive thoughts and an air hug! I can’t imagine what you must be going through right now being separated from your family and your bf not being able to emotionally be there for you. This website is a good place to start trying to get yourself in a better frame of mind. Hang in there.

[Olive18 in reply to PT81]

You don't realize how excited I am that someone is listening! And even took time to offer hope, and kindness🙏 thank you so much

[Efthimiades in reply to Olive18]

Hang in there... life is hard!! I know, its double hard for us with " issues" .., but we have wisdom & strength that others don't.... keep fighting! Your daughter's worth it💞

[Efthimiades]

Get rid of your boyfriend ( as much as it hurts...he's just bringing u down... trust me, I've had my share of loosers, & I'm also co dependent) go do something nice for yourself.... spend a few bucks at the dollar store... paint your nails....change your hair... Your daughter needs you. Keep a journal, your daughter needs to see her mom survive. If you give up, she will not understand & think somehow she's at fault. I sometimes feel my life sucks, then I snuggle next to my 12 year old .... sniff his head... kiss him ( till he yells at me) THAT ITSELF MAKES LIFE WORTH LIVING... HANG IN THERE , YOULL GET THAT WITH YOUR DAUGHTER. I don't have him on weekends ( stupid x does) so I clean houses to make ends meet. Leaving now but I'll check back later to chat. Hang in there. Your little snuggle bunny needs you.😘

[Olive18 in reply to Efthimiades]

Wow, thank you so much! You just gave me so much hope just knowing that someone else cares and understands. I am so glad i joined this site. I already feel better❤️

[Efthimiades]

I'm new to this group. But it seems like we're all here to help each other, and whoever is not, well they should find a different group. I've had many therapists, some ok, some very very bad ( i had one lady look at her watch the entire session) we are obviously all struggling. Either from our own personal demons, childhood trauma, abuse, and so on. One thing I know is surround yourself by people ( especially your partner) by people you actually LIKE being around. Nice and kind people. More positive than negative. Throw away the miserable, self centered narcissists that are grumpy and mean.... when people are genuinely Nice im genuinely happier !! Sending love🤩😍🥰💕

[Hidden]

Please don’t be too hard on yourself, financially supporting someone is difficult. You can only do you best and it’s never too late.

I also truly believe the partner you choose for your life plays a HUGEEE role in your life. That’s why it is so important to choose the right partner because they will either support and help you or hold you back. I won’t say leave him because of course he may be going through mental illness but you can also help without being in a relationship with him. Anyway.. it is a very difficult time for you right now, and feeling hopeless is depressing and discouraging for you, but please understand that you are still capable of going after the life you were meant to have and pursue. Go towards what feels right to you. There are people who will assist you and maybe even help financially until you get back on your feet, you just need to find those people. You want better and that’s where better starts.

[Sleeplessme]

I would say you need a target, and that target should be your daughter. I have a daughter and couldn't be without her to the extent you are. People need to help each other, if you support the boyfriend but get none in return, it's time to get rid. Make your goal to be with your daughter. Whether you move to where she is or work to create a life she can come to. She needs you and you need her.

[Olive18]

Yes i agree thank you

[FearIsALiar]

We are here for you 💗

[Olive18]

Thank you so much, joining this site has been one of the best and positive decisions I've made in awhile. Just knowing people care has really helped me more than i can say.