Idk what to do, ive been feeling like this since senior high school but this is the worst. I cant stay still for more than 5 minutes without wanting to delete myself.
Too many triggers around me and i feel stressed out everytime im not talking and even when im talking i can be like.. suddenly quiet and feel worthless. I havent seen any doc because im afraid that would just justifies me for hurting my self more.
Too many triggers. Loss, break up, failure. I am a failure. A big one.
All i want to do now is just destroy myself by doing bad things. Cig, alcohol, selfharm.. idk what else i can do if i continue on living like this