I just feel so alone

[Tcatch27]

I always feel like I'm putting other's out by talking to them or reaching out to them. I always feel like when I talk about my problems, or when I'm having a panic attack, that I'm putting them out. I push people/family away constantly, I shut myself in and I drive my husband crazy because I'm so clingy on him. I always want to talk to him constantly about my feeling's and He is very supportive he actually found this website for me, where I could have other's that understand how I feel. Because he tries to help he really does but, after a certain amount of time he just gets drained from all of the emotions and the rollercoaster. I'm so much to handle some days, I slam things when I have a mood coming on and that's normally how he can tell, and hes so sweet and supportive and he tries to talk me down. I just don't understand what's wrong with me I've been dragonized with 4 different disorders. I just feel alone, and sad 99% of the time.

[Agora1]

Hi Tcatch27, Welcome to this amazing support forum. Let me assure you that you are not alone. This is a safe place to come to where others understand your concerns. We do not judge, we listen as well as share our own experiences.

Depending what your disorders are, you seem to be on a lot of medication. You say you have Panic Attacks and yet you love your job and your husband is supportive. Being clingy to that one supportive person is not unusual since we are filled with unrealistic fear and need that someone we feel safe with.

The emotional pain we feel is very real and after a while, we tend to push family and friends away because they can't understand. Unless they've experienced mental health issues themselves, after a while, people turn a deaf ear to our explanations.

You may be getting angry because you are mentally and physically drained from something you don't understand and that goes on and on. Constantly needing to talk about your feelings is also normal because you need to rid yourself of your emotional pain. This is why

this forum was formed. To put together people who understand what you need.

You are blessed to have a supportive husband who did you a service by pointing this site out to you. Many of us don't have the support we need around us. When you feel comfortable

enough, please let us know what seems to be the problem that is causing this upheaval in your life. There usually is a reason for Anxiety to take hold. Are you seeing a therapist at this time? We may not be doctors but we have the capacity to be empathic to your needs

and welfare. Hope to talk soon. I'm glad you are here with us. xx

[froggymom88]

Welcome Tcatch27. I'm so glad your husband found this forum for you. He sounds like a great guy. Maybe try listening to some calming music when you feel an attack coming on or go for a brisk walk . It's not a cure just a means of calming the thought patterns until you are in a better place. Sending lots of hugs.