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Im doing better right now. I wanted everyone to know.

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I went to work today. It was immensely difficult. I felt so mentally distressed and self conscious. I felt so drained and ugly being out there. But I went. I really pushed myself today and felt so much better for going out to do my window cleaning job.

I also prayed most of the day too which really helped me cope and process things. I prayed about things that are close to me and is damaging to me. (Silently of course ๐Ÿ˜‹) There is a scripture I read from this morning by chance just before I went to work. A friend sent it to me and it helped me. It says:

"Throw your burden on Jehovah (God's name in the Bible), and he will sustain you"

Its in Psalms 55:22 (or in the Zabur (if I spelled that right?) if you are muslim).

There was also these words in my friend's message:

"The word burden in the Hebrew text (the original language of the scripture) literally means ' lot' and it refers to the cares and the anxieties that we might suffer because of our lot in life". Jehovah is more aware of these burdens than anyone else and can give us the strength to deal with them. That is why the directive is to throw them to Jehovah"

I read this and it really inspired me to pray about my 'lot' and 'throw it' in prayer on God.. Just everything thats been close to my heart (silently of course when I was around others... Im not a weirdo ๐Ÿ˜‹). I really talked about the things that hurt me inside that noone can really understand unless they are in my head. All the fears and sadnesses and hurt thats been the cause of my depression. It helped me lots to understand myself and process things and know better how to deal with things. Im not saying it solved everything but it helped me more than if I didnt do it. It made me realise I need to do that more often.

I feel somewhat better right now. Im going to go to bed now and start another day. Im actually looking forward to tomorrow which is a rarity. I have so so much to do though but at least Im not feeling overwhelmed like I have been feeling lately. One day at a time though.

I have a real problem with looking after myself and struggle to sleep alot because I often feel guilty for doing good things for myself. I need to rest though. I need to look after myself but its so hard. But Im feeling more able to tonight. Goodnight everyone ๐Ÿค—

P.s. I will reply to everyone soon. Im just so so tired from not sleeping thats all. Also, Ive got rid of my internet now as I have really addictive tendencies and its not good for me so I dont have it constantly. I literally can read rubbish for hours and hours! I need to not have internet at all or restrict my usage. So will get back on here when I get wifi. I hope you understand. Im just a bit poorly and can misuse things addictively and severely to deal with my emotional pain. Its so hard to be balanced with it ๐Ÿ˜ต

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I'm grateful you had a good day today. Glad you are doing your best to help yourself, it's what we all have to do. ๐Ÿ‘

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Thank you

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bonkers65

I'm glad you are doing better. Sounds like you are doing the best you can and that is good.

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Thank you

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Hb2003

I am glad that your doing much better now right now Iโ€™m proud of you ๐Ÿ˜ŠโœŒ๐Ÿป

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Thank you ๐Ÿ˜Š โœŒ๏ธ

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Anna_and_Ollie

Iโ€™m happy to hear you had a good day today !!!! Also that you were able to connect to God, thatโ€™s wonderful!

Whatever your doing sounds like itโ€™s working for you so keep it up!

Also I totally get the whole distracting internet thing lol. I havenโ€™t been allowing myself on any social media today and Iโ€™m going to try to keep it up for the week (other than this site cause I donโ€™t consider it social media... itโ€™s more of a site where some of the most awesome people I have ever talked to are)

Anyways I hope you sleep well!! Goodnight

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Thank you ๐Ÿ˜Š, yeah its a really good site with awesome people. I hope your 'no social media time' went well and you feel better for it

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It was very therapeutic actually.

I still donโ€™t use it too much now

I'm so glad that you had a better day! Good for you for doing all that!๐Ÿ‘

Prayer is powerful!

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Thanks ๐Ÿ‘

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goldieoldie

Well done,whatever gets you through the day ,you deserve to have peace of mind .and keep focused ,you have the ability to stay strong ,believe and Your efforts are acknowledged....

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Thank you

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So glad,your coping better,,,take care,!

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kikilou23

Hello.

Are you one of Jehovah's Witnesses'? I am too. I am in the united Kingdom.

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