Sad...That's All I Can Say Today

[MountainLover22]

Last night, getting into bed, I felt my mood taking a serious dive. Hoping sleep would prevent it from leaking into the next day, I took some melatonin and actually fell asleep at a relatively normal time. Unfortunately, sleep and my mood were not connected this time around and I woke up with the feeling of just wanting to cry. I woke up and hated my life today. I have the combination of anger, where I just want to break things and scream, combined with sadness, where I just want to sit and cry. Yet here I am, going through the motions, on the verge of tears all morning, but not being able to share it with anyone but you all. I sometimes wish I was a different person.

[LoveBear]

I’m so sorry, sending hugs to you.

[MountainLover22 in reply to LoveBear]

Thank you, LoveBear, so much.

[djonmars1973]

You’re not alone I bet you’ve heard that said many times I haven’t slept for 2 nights now and just trying to catch up now but anxiety won’t allow. I know how you feel I wish I wasn’t me at the moment sometimes I don’t know which way to turn. I hope you feel better soon.

[MountainLover22 in reply to djonmars1973]

Thank you very, very much. It means a lot.

[Hidden]

That struggle is such an awful one to go through, and it may seem like it'll last forever. But like every storm, it will pass. The emotions and thoughts will let up. But for now, go through the motions. Feel all the things. Let all the thoughts come through. It might be super difficult to do when you're in that state, but if you can carve out 10 minutes to meditate and another 10 minutes to journal, you may feel a little bit of the emotions and thoughts loosen their grip. You can and will make it to the other side. Here if you ever want to vent/need a distraction/want to chat/whatever.

[MountainLover22 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much for your kindness and support. I can't tell you how grateful I am.

[Hidden in reply to MountainLover22]

My pleasure. Been in that place a lot.... especially over the past few months. Wish there was way to not have it be a thing.

[Hidden]

HUGE hugs and love your way

[MountainLover22 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you, so much. Your support just makes me so grateful to have people like you here to listen to me.

[Hidden]

Sorry you’re having a rough day! Hang in there. Take it easy, have a good cry... don’t keep it bottled up too long. Suppressed emotions are the most dangerous. Remember it’s ok to feel sad now and then. We don’t have to be 100 percent all the time. Hope you feel better soon!

[bonkers65]

Hate you are feeling bad and I hope you feel better soon.

[Secret4706]

Felt like i had written this myself as I csn relate to you so much. Hope you are okay x

[Hidden]

Thank you for sharing. It’s terrible really...the sudden onset of negative energy