Thankful post I can only say here, but want to say!

[BlueBelle06]

I am so thankful for my family, friends, food, shelter, but other things I can only tell y'all and want to proclaim. You are the only ones who will understand this "thanksgiving" list

I am thankful for finding this incredible online support group where people really care and for making new friends here!

I am thankful for the will to take control of this episode of depression and being more proactive this time- seeing results!

I am thankful today that my new depression medication is working and suicidal thoughts are gone!

I am thankful that the new headache medication is working and I haven't had a headache in 23 days, which is the longest headache-free period I've had in 10 years!

I am thankful for a serious discussion with my mother this year and start of the healing journey with our relationship!

I am thankful for recently eliminating a toxic friendship from my life and feel much lighter now!

I am thankful for the depression starting to lift and I am now making plans with new friends and even enjoyed shopping 2 days ago!

I am thankful for my ability to see the doctor and therapist and have access to medication!

I am thankful for finding the book Thoughts and Feelings, which has helped me cope with the loss of my toxic friend!

Again, I'm thankful for all on the site who listen, read and reply to posts trying to help others despite going through a lot of difficult things themselves.

Happy day after Thanksgiving friends!

Leslie

[aaronm]

Thank YOU bluebelle! This is a great site with wonderful people. I'm glad you had a good holiday.

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I am thankful for this site as well...but more so for the compassion and support of the ones who come here.

I am thankful for you BlueBelle!

You matter.

[LovelySnow]

Thank you, too! 😄

[SmilesLots]

Wonderful sentiments BlueBelle! I'm glad you are finding support here that is helpful.

[Agora1]

BlueBelle06, thank you so much for sharing a more than positive post.

It's always so good to hear. It's also nice to hear that this support site was

part of your healing process.

We are so thankful for you as well Leslie in making this virtual family what

it is. xx

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Thanks for sharing this..it was lovely to hear 😊💕

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I am thankful for YOU and your lovely post. May God Bless you always. It's a NEW day and we have a beautiful week ahead of us. Enjoy this Holiday Season. Hugs, Laughter and Love.

[trapis2]

Beautifully said!! I too have got the anxiety under control as have you !! There is an answer and I'm so thankful for that and thankful you are so much in control of your situations !! Getting of that Ativan was not fun, but now it's past history and I am so thankful for that. Hugs to all

[BlueBelle06 in reply to trapis2]

Thank you! One day at a time ⭐️

[Sabio77]

Hi Leslie, I am so excited to see joy returning to your life. You are an overcomer Leslie! I knew you would see the light at the end of the tunnel. I celebrate with you. I'm happy to hear that you are working on restoring your relationship with your mother. That is a huge step and a blessing. Keep going and don't look back. If you do, do it only to see where you came from; promise yourself that you will never return. Be true to yourself. You are doing great! I am thankful for you as well. I'm glad to be your friend. message me anytime. Marsha

[BlueBelle06 in reply to Sabio77]

Thank you Marsha for being so encouraging 🌸

[Sabio77 in reply to BlueBelle06]

You bet my friend. Nobody deserves to go thru life's journey and keeping it inside. Iv been there and done that. No fun at all. just a crying mess of heaviness that is all unnecessary baggage we all don't need. positive ways to face our situations in life helps. you are in my thoughts and prayers. hope to keep in touch. ttyl as always, hugs and a are free and goes for miles...lol

[TaraRae]

Thank you for posting this. My illness and recently dumping a toxic friend has my trapped in darkness. What is the name of the book that you mentioned? Possibly the author as well. I am struggling so so much. My suicidal thoughts are prevalent and I won't act on them as I promised my kids to not leave them this way. I do have a therapist but it's not enough. I'm stuck. Reading your post gives me hope. I'm elated to see that you're getting better. I'm going down that rabbit hole and if I don't figure it out soon I will get so stuck that I will push everyone away. Thank you again. Please let me know the name of that book. Losing a friend I thought was my savior only to find out she's not a good person has killed,me. TY Belle,

Tara

[BlueBelle06 in reply to TaraRae]

So sorry Tara. Going through such a hard time with a close friend just makes things worse. My situation went on several months without closure but I’m finally past it. I learned that i had to grieve the loss.

The book is Thoughts and Feelings by Matthew McKay. It helped me learn how to stop spinning my wheels on thinking about this person and replaying the whole situation over and over. I’m much better off without this friend. I hope that will be true for you.

You will get through this. Keep doing whatever you have to do each day to get better. Get all the advice you can and take what you think will work. It’s slow but i really think we can take back control over time. There will always be bad days when you have chronic depression but hopefully they’ll become fewer. ☀️🌸⭐️

[TaraRae]

Thank you SO MUCH! I am grieving her loss, I am grieving the loss of my chance at life, I am not going to get a pancreas transplant. My new Dr and I were so hopeful that this would happen. I was turned down as I'm too old, 54, severely malnourished and I'm called a "medical anomoly", unique, out of my scope of practice. Ugh! I love being unique but not like this. My new Dr is great (she's actually just a Physicians Assistant) and she is the 1st Dr to read the novel called my chart! She's says she's not ok just watching me die. Sooo grateful for her. I do have depression, my therapist says it situational, but mostly have severe anxiety and panic attacks.

TY so much!! I needed this and there you were. You are amazing!

Tara

[BlueBelle06 in reply to TaraRae]

I’m sorry about your medical situation but glad you found a doctor you like. Never lose hope! Here if you want to talk

[Catlover55]

Your post gives me hope that better days are ahead. I'm happy for you! This group is very important to me, just hearing others who understand the struggle.