Depression or Mid-life crisis?

[iamme02]

I don't know what is going on with me. The last couple months I have not been myself. I'm so sad, down, and just feel empty. My partner and kids don't know what to do with me. I'm seeing my doctor tomorrow to talk about medications because what I'm on isn't working.

I hate my job and I now have some health issues to deal with. These are the things often on my mind. Yes, I'm looking for a different job. But Im not even sure what type of job would make me happy.

I've done counseling in the past for anxiety and I really have no interest in beginning that again. I don't find it all that helpful. I'd rather talk to others feeling the same way, but I just don't have anyone in my life that understands this. Hoping to connect with others having these feelings.

[Bluesky6]

I feel like I’m on that same page. Midlife as well.. last year in my 40’s.. I hate my job as well. I don’t get too thrilled about getting up and starting my day. I have 2 teens as well and it’s the hardest age I’ve had to parent. I’m doing my best. I’m sure you are as well. Meds haven’t worked for me either and therapy usually isn’t much of a help. But anyway... I get it and I don’t want to be here to bring you down with my grief. There has to be a better way to get through this mid life thing and depression. It’s downright exhausting

[iamme02 in reply to Bluesky6]

Hey, it's just nice to hear I'm not alone. I'm sorry you're going through this too. I also have 2 teenagers and one that's darn close to the teen years. My oldest has OCD and the other deals with anxiety/depression. Keeping them on track and making sure they're doing good in school is exhausting. Some days that takes about all I have to give. Today while I was sitting at work, being useless, I thought about doing some volunteer work. This is something I've always wanted to do more of. I'm hoping that feeling like I'm doing some good in the world will feel good. Worth a shot.

[Bluesky6 in reply to iamme02]

I here you about keeping the kids on track with school and wake up for remote learning. My daughter also struggles with anxiety/depression. It’s hard to watch one of your kids struggle with what you also struggle with. So very exhausting. I’m not sure how I make it through a day some days. I honestly would be ok with winning the lottery and never having to work again. Nope.. you’re not alone and I’m here anytime you want to vent.

[iamme02 in reply to Bluesky6]

Same! If I won the lottery I wouldn't work. I just don't get enjoyment or fulfillment from working. It's a source of great stress.

And thank you, I'm here to listen as well!