Where is my muse?

I am really in a rut lately. Before, I turned to writing and painting as a way to get feelings out. One day I asked myself why bother. There is nobody to see it or read it so why bother? I have isolated so long it feels like nothing exist out there. I sometimes ask myself if I exist! I have trouble knowing things and people exist if I can't see them. It is called Object Relation. Anyone else experience this?

[Operalady]

Hi KCindy. The pandemic is isolating. You sound lonely. So many of us are! Thank you for reaching out to me! I am still in bed having breakfast with my pug! Do you have a pet?

[Hidden in reply to Operalady]

I am an early riser. As far as the pandemic goes, it's like normal for me. I didn't get out much anyway. No I don't have a pet. But I have Eric Clapton keeping me company today 🎸🎶🎸.

[Starrlight]

If you can get yourself to create please do it. It does mean something. It’s beautiful

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

I have my sketchbook here beside me. I am looking at it and it is looking at me. I will keep trying .

[Hidden]

Hi 👋 hope it’s ok to reply to your post of a week ago. Saw your mention of painting as an outlet. Have you heard of the Sketch A Day app? It is free app with daily prompts for those who like to draw to do a sketch or painting every day and share a photo of it. It is very encouraging, positive feedback from other artists, etc. Maybe it would be right up your alley?

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Hi Phil and it is always ok to respond no matter how long my post was made. I do follow some art tutorials on YouTube. A sketch a day sounds great. I like having assignments. Thanks so much. Great to hear from you.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

If you do decide to join Sketch A Day I would love to see your artwork! I am on there NOT because I am good at art 🙃 but as a way to connect with my sister who loves to paint.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Tell me exactly how to get to Sketch A Day.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I found it by searching “sketch a day” in the App Store on my iPhone. Also here is a link you can follow, I hope it works:

sketchaday.app/

[mrmonk]

Hello KCindy, I see you've recently joined, so welcome to the community! Do you write poems by any chance?

[Hidden in reply to mrmonk]

Hello mrmonk. Thank you for the welcome. To answer your question, yes I have written poems. Are you a poet?

[mrmonk in reply to Hidden]

I am. Reading and writing poems are what make me feel most connected -- to myself and to others. Sometimes folks post poems in the forums, which I always appreciate reading. Poems can animate feelings in a way that prose just cannot.

[Hidden in reply to mrmonk]

I agree. Poetry drags thoughts and expressions from the depth of your soul. It can be very exposing as well. I don't really have an outlet to share.....me. I keep my works locked away. I have also co-written a screenplay about my therapeutic journey.

[1428SRTYBK]

Hi Cindy, I’m very much a lonely creator as well, have been at home other than a car ride or two or an errand here and there since December so I really understand how frustrating isolation is. If you’re in need of an art friend I am too😅

[Hidden in reply to 1428SRTYBK]

Hi there142. Creativity can bring us up or bring us down. The ability to go deep and bring our thoughts and feelings to the surface gives us a chance to ' take a snapshot' we can refer to and ponder. Sometimes a lightbulb goes on and we understand ourselves a bit better. Ultimately it is up to us to see who we are. Art long and prosper. 🤓