Hey everyone- I'm going through the final stages of my divorce and also the worse depression I have ever experienced. I never knew how disabling this could be and how dead and hollow I would feel inside. Bottom line is I made poor choices in my marriage that led to a split after almost 11 years. Just recently I found out that my ex-wife is and has been dating, of which a few she has become lightly intimate with. This destroyed me as in the back of my mind I always thought there was a chance. In fact, we were still somewhat sexually active until the last couple of weeks, which caused that tiny flame of hope to keep burning....
I have to face the reality that it is truly over and I need to accept what is happening. She would not be doing these things unless I had failed at being a good husband, so this is what I get right? I just need to suck it up, be a man, and get on with my life? The more I think about it, the deeper I feel myself going into the dark abyss of depression. Any feedback or help is appreciated at this point. I simply don't have many people that I can openly talk to about this.