I need help and I need to work on self love... I'm mentally exhausted but I am a winner and I'm never going to give up!

[musiclove10]

i've been struggling with depression and MANY other mental health disorders like anxiety, depression, OCD, ADHD, bipolar... Since i was 13 i lost my way, I've ALWAYS had trouble with self esteem and self love and I just don't know how to handle it i want to love myself but i just don't, I just want to know if there is anything i can do to boost my self esteem, and self worth. I'm now a senior in high school about to graduate and I've come a long ways since my freshman year, during my freshman year i skipped classes to go smoke weed with my boyfriend i didnt like smoking weed and doing that but i did it because he did, and skipped over 180 classes and now im about to graduate. The guy i dated i was dating him for around 2 years and I lost my innocence to him (if you know what i mean) it's been really tough to get over, i finally got over that im 17 now soon to be 18 and I guess my entire middle school and high school experience i have been focused on him and other people and I guess ive never known who i am, I am lost and I don't know who I am.. Any tips or advice would be amazing..

[Hidden]

Best thing u said.."ur a winner n never giving up"...fantastic start..

Its time to put u first n take care of u.

Surround urself with positive.

Sending u a hug..

U got this girl😁

[musiclove10 in reply to Hidden]

Aww thank you so much!! Your post about the monkeys i saw on your page made me laugh btw!! <3 sending you a hug back!

[Hidden in reply to musiclove10]

If u liked that one,look for my elf post from last holiday season.Somehow its hard for me to be serious,lol

Thanks for the hug back.😁

[ginarose]

I did a lot of the same things at your age. My mother was diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer my sophomore year of hs & looking back, I dealt by drinking, doing drugs & boys. It wasn’t all bad, some good memories. I’m 47 now & work in healthcare & enjoy it immensely. Do you have any idea what you may be interested in doing? I’ve learned this~ we spend a large portion of the time we have in life at our jobs, find one you don’t hate to go to. Taking care of yourself feels good. It also gives you the ability to walk away from bad relationships instead of having some dependency on another person. Is your family or the like supportive? Wishing you all the best sweetie. I have a 17-year-old son & a 24-year-old daughter. It’s a tough time to be growing up in. 💞

[musiclove10 in reply to ginarose]

I actually want to be a therapist or work with in the area of trauma for adolescents... So that's so cool that you got into that career, my dad always tells me to be a dental hygienist because he says "at least they make good money" i argue with my dad all the time because he doesn't understand me, yet i get depression and my mental health problems genetically from him. I always tell him "i wanna do something where i wake up everyday happy to go to work" and he doesn't like that answer but im going to follow my heart and do a job i love which is a job involving helping people.. I do have my mom who supports me in a kind caring way like a mom should but my dad is more of a "medication fixes all" guy and doesn't understand therapy...

[Hidden in reply to musiclove10]

...btw...love your username, similar to mine, lol, and wow thats great that u wanna be a therapist, thats what my sister wants to be : )

[musiclove10 in reply to Hidden]

thanks haha and thats cool!!

[Hidden]

I am right there with you....I need to work on self love and I need help as well. I don't know your situation; but, I am thinking of you and praying for you. I am a caregiver for my ailing and aging parents. And, I put all of my energy and focus on the care and well-being of my parents. And, I don't take care of myself and I put my needs at the bottom of the priority list; I realize that is the wrong thing to do in so many ways. I don't know your particular situation; but, I know that I need help and to work on self love. Hugs to you!!

[musiclove10 in reply to Hidden]

I'm sorry about that, but from what i can tell about you is your a very giving person to your parents and im sure to other people as well, maybe you should put some of the care you give to them onto yourself and show you that love because you seem like a good person! And i know its hard to do ya know "easier said than done" trust me lol but maybe the reason you don't show yourself care is because you feel as if you don't deserve it.. Maybe you should take a day and get someone to take care of them for just one day and have a full day for YOU, maybe like getting your nails done, or a massage, or reading a book at a park, or walking and enjoying nature because you are worth it because we can't take care or love others fully until we are capable of loving ourselves <3 sending prays your way as well, we will get through this together! It's easier to give others advice than help yourself i totally understand but maybe we can really do it together lets try this for just one week... Pretend that you are a friend or one of your parents and they are going through the trouble of loving themselves, think about what you would say to them, then use what you'd say to them and turn in around and use it for you, and I will try doing the same! Let me know how it goes please! Prays and love are surrounded by you!

[Rainpeace]

I've read your responses to others and it apparent how thoughtful you are. I feel that you be an incredible and caring therapist if that continues to be your dream!

I am experiencing some of what you are going through as well. I'm trying to find who I am. I'm learning, but try things that you have to try just because it interested you. Big or small. It may allow you to start to at least learn what interests you, to find some of what drives you. If you could do anything without limitations, what would it be?

For self-esteem, still trying to figure that out lol. I would say try self-care. Doing things for yourself that makes you happy. I think it builds that you are worth it. Also, it goes back to doing your interest. Doing what makes you happy despite other opinions. I hope this helps in some way.

[musiclove10 in reply to Rainpeace]

Thank you i really appreciate that! And i will try!

[cbgrace1980]

Part of self love is accepting who you are, mistakes and all. Your mistakes do not define you. They are part of your past, but not part of your future. It's hard to know how to love yourself but please talk to your doctor about how you are feeling. We are here for you, too!

[Agora1 in reply to cbgrace1980]

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