What's the point?

[SeakingLight]

I don't even know what I'm living for anymore. I feel zero joy. I have a very good life but just want out of it. I have no purpose.

[Ladybug9]

You said you have a very good life but something is definitely missing heavily in your life. Any ideas what is missing to make you feel this way?

[SeakingLight in reply to Ladybug9]

Oddly no. I've been searching for a few years now to figure it out. I just can't find my path and purpose.

[Ladybug9 in reply to SeakingLight]

Maybe we can try and figure it out together! I have suicidal ideations on a regular basis but 3 things prevent me from doing anything. So I know that feeling of helplessness and feeling like there is no purpose. You DO have a purpose! Don't forget that. You may not feel that you have but I know you do! We just have to discover it!

[SeakingLight in reply to Ladybug9]

Maybe I do I just don't want to do it anymore. I have 6 young kids so I get up and take care of them every day but my life doesn't have much else. My therapist said to get out and do stuff which I do. I had a book club last night. I just didn't want to be there. My husband gives me breaks as much as he can. He and I go on dates and do an extended vacation once a year. But I don't feel like going or doing those things. I know I can't leave or get out for good, someone has to make sure these kids have what they need. I just really want to though.

[Ladybug9 in reply to SeakingLight]

You have a lot of responsibility! It sounds like you may need more "me time" doing something you really enjoy without anyone from the family involved. Just a thought.

[SeakingLight in reply to Ladybug9]

I'm struggling to find something I enjoy. I don't really enjoy anything.

[Homieshelphomies in reply to SeakingLight]

There has to be a purpose for you. Even if at times it doesn't seem or feel like you are a big deal to this world....(I feel that sometimes) but I am sure you have meaning and purpose... specially to those around you that love you, and need you and care about you..! Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, swimming, swimming! ❤️🙏

[SeakingLight in reply to Homieshelphomies]

My purpose is to be there for my kids, but they don't even like me that much. Honestly there aren't a whole lot of other people in my life.

[Homieshelphomies in reply to SeakingLight]

I have a 7 year old that doesn't like me sometimes already 😅 but your kids love you..I'm sure they do!! Your whole family, friends...It does sound like you have a good life..I feel like I have a good life too..yet today I cried to my husband about why I didn't understand why I felt so alone at times...life can be a b**** sometimes, or our brains, emotions, I don't know...but we just gotta keep reaching out...keep looking for our purpose, path...You have 6 kids...I mean...there has to be one or two in there that like you and love you so so much lol I only have two! Right now in my life I feel like I'm doing the same things every single day...over and over again...havent left my house because of the pandemic...but this is my purpose right now I suppose..I wish I could have more kids myself but my body can't do it again...Your purpose can be as simple as just being who you are right now and doing what you're doing right now! Its important still. I hope that you continue to be you ❤️ hope for you to find your joy again...i know you've felt it once..that means you can feel it and find it again...and stay healthy 🙏❤️