Lost hope, a cry for help

[Landing47]

What should then happen when all my solutions have run out? What do I do when what would make me feel better now makes me feel guilty? I used to love venting to my friends. When I was not okay I like to have the company of somebody who gets me. Who understands what’s going on with me but lately nothing is the same. They can’t always be around long enough for me to feel better anymore. I start to feel like I’m forcing them to stay with me until the storm has passed and it makes me feel guilty. People have lives to live, things to do, people to see. Everybody’s life moved on except for mine.

Do you ever feel like you’ve depleted your vulnerability voucher. Like you can only come off as weak towards a certain person for a limited amount of time. Beyond that I start to feel like I’m annoying them. I start to feel like they want a break. I start to feel like I’m too much.

And that’s why I’m feeling hopeless. They thing that once made me feel better, now makes me feel guilty. I don’t know what sort of reassurance I want but right now I’m feeling pretty helpless.

[Burnedoutinalberta]

I get that. You don't want to burden anyone anymore.

[Landing47 in reply to Burnedoutinalberta]

Yes, and it’s been difficult to explain that to my family. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I’m just hurting people cause they start to feel like I’m pushing them away.

[Llab]

Many people don’t want to hear about other people’s problems and will back off quickly, so you need to be careful who you confide in. Is it possible for you to find a counselor or

[Llab]

(Continued) therapist? They’re professional listeners and maybe helpful for you.

It’s very difficult for people who haven’t suffered from mental illness to understand those who do, so it’s better to speak with others who have been through it.

Is there a support group in your area? Many find these groups very helpful. You could also try posting more on this site. People here want to help you and don’t think you are a burden. They realize that you are in trouble, just as they are, and are ready to offer support when needed.