Meltdown

[Mrspjsmom]

Last night I had a terrible meltdown. My family is on vacation at the beach and I couldn't go because I am having painful back problems. I thought I would pace myself and pickup and clean the house while they were gone. My to-do list was a mile long. My body rebelled and I haven't done anything. Even had to have dinner delivered one night so I could eat. During my meltdown I hated myself and everything around me. I just wanted to rent a dumpster and throw out everything in my house. But that is unrealistic just like my to- do list. Today woke up thinking I will do what I can. I also realized I am never alone. I can come to this site anytime for support and encouragement. You understand and ate kind. So this morning I ripped up my list and will do my best to stay positive.

[Mrspjsmom]

Having muscle spasms in my back so I can't drive far. My husband might take me to Atlantic City for a few days next month if my back is better. And he called and said he's bringing me home some fudge tomorrow. Chocolate always helps.

[Mrspjsmom]

He knows how upset I am that I had to stay home and how much pain I've been in so he's doing his best to make me feel better.

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Mrspjsmom]

Give your husband the housework list 😊

[Dolphin14]

Chocolate will help

Don't worry about the list. There's always going to be a list.

Relax and find something you enjoy doing. Let all the " I should be doing this stuff" go.

You are never alone we are always here.

[Hidden]

I too, had a terrible meltdown yesterday afternoon until sometime today when I had cried it out until I was numb and fell asleep. I’m 62 and I guess there’s more than one of us out here of all ages. I have back spasms as well but you are fortunate to have a husband who can understand and sympathize with you. Mine relates to the dog rather than me. I’m a mile from the beach but can rarely go due to issues at home.

I cannot make myself do my mile long list either. It is horrendous. I am going to write my issues here tomorrow and I’m hoping someone can help. Oh, and I have thought of amassing boxes and hefty bags to throw everything out that isn’t crucial. I haven’t gone through with it because I can’t afford to replace anything!

[Mrspjsmom in reply to Hidden]

My biggest obstacle to throwing things out is does someone else need or can use it. I grew up quite poor. Not many clothes and most of them were second hand. But I am at a point where things have to go. If they are in good shape I shall donate them to charity. If not out the door. Have not had the energy or a long enough period of pain free time to start but I do have plenty of boxes and trash bags. It's a start.

[Hidden]

Rip it!!