Meltdown

[SimplyMe87]

Today was REALLY hard. All I did was cry. I went into work, then they sent me home after 2 hours because we were slow. Half of me was happy because I was ready to bust into tears again so it was best that I leave, but the other half of me was disappointed because i need the money. I’ve been apartment searching but keep getting turned away because I’m not making enough. Most place require a person to make 3x’s the rent and as a cook at a restaurant, that’s not going to happen. I’m struggling to make ends meet and am very disappointed in myself for everything that I lost. I just need help. Financially and mentally. Is there anyone out there whose been through this (with children, may I add), & gotten through it? I need to know there’s hope. I’ve been on my own since I was 21. I never hit rock bottom like i have now. I can’t believe I waited until 30 to fail. *sigh* I’ve been wearing myself out with job hunting and worrying myself crazy about money and a stable place to live.

Help. 😞😔

[gogogirl]

Hey, I went "down in my fifties- thirty is still young. I understand that discouragement is tough.

[gogogirl in reply to gogogirl]

Can you get roomates to help with apt?

[SimplyMe87 in reply to gogogirl]

No. I have two children, and keep to myself. Don’t really talk to anyone, and the people that i do, already has a place, is married, or has children of their own. & honestly, I’m not good with living with other people for long. I’m at my cousins temporarily. Just until I find a place of my own.

[gogogirl in reply to SimplyMe87]

Well - great- you have a place with a family member.

[SimplyMe87 in reply to gogogirl]

Yes. I’m blessed to have her, but rdy to have my own space again

[Simonn]

You haven't failed your dealing with a condition and trying to make your way through life. Hope you get settled soon

[SimplyMe87 in reply to Simonn]

Thank you. Me too! 😊

[Hopeful-Tinkerbell]

I was just thinking about you today and wondering how your new job was going. Sorry to hear things are better but these things take time. When I had my child I still lived with my mom and my pos husband. He never kept a job. He was also very emotionally unstable. I was working 3 12 hour shifts at the hospital and getting part time jobs for my days off. Grocery stores, restaurants, fast food even escorting wide loads. Half of my check went to daycare. I needed my husband to go out job hunting. It didn’t work. He stayed home smoking weed off my money and watching porn. We got divorced. The last year we were together he had not earned one dime. I wonder if things wouldn’t have been so hard I would have gotten disabled so early. I tried. We lived with my mom a lot. Now my sons an adult. I live way out in the middle of nowhere just to make it as cheap as I can. It’s hard to make ends meet but I know you are determined. Keep trying your best and cut yourself some slack. It takes time. Try talking to social services. They can sometimes help. Have you by chance applied at local hospital? They have a lot of jobs from housekeeping, reception, taking people to Xray or testing, receptionist etc. Even taking people’s dinner orders. Hospitals usually have decent wages for non clinical employees as well as benefits. Mine even had discounted daycare. I can’t remember what state you live in but try for social service help and disability for your child that has autism. There is help out there. You’ll get there sweetie. I’m a grandma and still can’t figure it all out. I know how frustrating it can be. Don’t forget when things get tough and your trying your best to pray!!