Hope=lost

[angelface1034]

Things haven’t been in my favor lately, but looking back I’ve noticed things haven’t been in my favor at all. It’s times like this that I think I was doomed for failure the second I entered this world. After many tiring years of holding myself up, I’ve come to the defeating realization that I am not strong nor am I weak but I am empty. A shell of my past self is all I have to hold on to. Although even that is fading away. I’ve always wanted to be that strong person who can conquer anything that comes in my way. I’ve always wanted to slay the demons that rest in heart. I wanted that because I want so bad to smile and bring a light that was lost in my eyes. That’s all i ever wanted. Thats all anyone ever wants. Isn’t it? To be happy. But... I feel that I was ripped apart from ever achieving happiness and ever reaching my full potential because I was never even given the chance. I think that’s what kills me the most. Living is really hard. I don’t necessarily want to die but i don’t necessarily want to live either.

[WiltedFlower]

thats a mood and a half, though. But I'm sorry you feel that way :// what about your childhood/past are you holding onto that was better than now?