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[piglet52]

It’s my senior year and I was recently diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and it’s been really difficult for me ever since. I didn’t think this is where I would be my last year and I’m just tired of living. I’m in IOP and I’m getting help but my depression just keeps telling me I can’t do it and I’ll never be able to do everything I used to do. I’ve lost a lot of friendships. Most of them don’t understand and I don’t expect them too. But I wish I felt like I was actually in control of my emotions and everything that’s happened to me.

[broken4886]

Trust me when I tell you that you can do this. I promise you. There is so much ahead of you. You’re so young. Life is waiting for you. Anything you want to accomplish...if you set your mind to it...you can do it. Having a disease does make things more difficult. But just think of how amazing you’ll feel once you conquer your fears and show everyone what you’re truly made of. Good things take time. Don’t give up. It will pay off I promise.

[Sttbngi]

Take a step away from yourself, and think about what you would tell someone in your situation... how would you tell them to get through today? What small change might brighten an hour of it?

Lots of us here are great at giving each other advice. You are... your responses are great! As a whole this group is compassionate, knows what to say and can give help easily. However, when it comes to helping ourselves, we can’t open the curtain that closes us in enough to see what might help. I recently looked through my own curtain and found if I was going to get better, I had to give myself the advice that I would tell someone else. I know me best and you know yourself best. Try and see where you are today as a journey that doesn’t end here. It’s just a speed bump and detour, but not a destination.

As for the people that don’t understand... it hurts, it sucks, but in the end you are far better off without that weight pulling you down. You will find your “people” soon enough. Be proud of yourself and your strength.

[piglet52 in reply to Sttbngi]

Thank you so much. That was probably the best thing I’ve heard thus far. I always give advice and so willingly because I would hate for someone to feel the way that I feel. But I need to take my own advice too. I appreciate every word you said and I will most definitely work on stepping out of my box and seeing what I would really tell myself. This gave me a lot of hope. Thank you! 💜 I hope everything in your life is well. I appreciate this more than you know.

[Sttbngi in reply to piglet52]

You are so welcome. May you find your inner peace. Reach out if you need support!

[MT2018]

You've got the world in front of you! I know this is a shock for you, having to deal with bipolar disorder, but I know many who live and function very well with it. It doesn't define you! We ALL have something we are battling. The trick is to follow the doctors prescriptions and take your meds, even when you start feeling better! (REALLY!) Most struggle when they decide since they feel better, they'll go off the meds. Sticking with the docs plan will allow you to graduate, go forward in your education and your career plans; get married, have kids and so much more! There's nothing you can't do! Conversely, I'm aware of a senior who is battling stage 4 cancer. Prognosis is grim. School isn't possible. She's already lost limbs. You're going to be ok! And, a final thought....one of my best friends is 50 years old, diagnosed in high school. She holds a top position in a corporation and makes about 150K a year! She enjoys her adult kids, travels the world and is very active. It's worth repeating...a diagnosis of bipolar isn't what defines you! Go for your dreams! You can do it!

[piglet52 in reply to MT2018]

Thank you so much for your kind words. I know that I can overcome this it’s just been difficult being able to see past this. I appreciate what you’ve said and I will definitely remember it next time I’m feeling discouraged.

[gogogirl in reply to piglet52]

I like what another poster said- you have a lot to look forward to, and there is treatment available. May you experience success along with the challenges that make life not boring. What are your plans?

[piglet52 in reply to gogogirl]

Thank you so much. I plan to just take it day by day.

[gogogirl]

What is IOP?

[piglet52 in reply to gogogirl]

Intensive Outpatient Program.