Family get-togethers are rough

Today was supposed to be a happy day to celebrate my sister's birthday, and for me it took on the quality of living in some kind of nightmare. I got upset over something earlier in the day with my sister. I apologized later but I don't think it meant anything. Now to my family I'm condemned as the crazy one who ruined her birthday. I feel like I just want to escape somewhere, there's nowhere to run. August is this dumb birthday month in my family, my sister's was today, then mine comes up, and then my mom's. They can just skip mine and give my mom a party so everyone can fawn over her. I have nothing to celebrate anyways. I really just wish I was dead, they could then just throw another stupid party and celebrate that they're done with me. Yes I know I sound melodramatic, I'm really not trying to garner sympathy, I am just so fed up with so much bs I have been through. I'd honestly just like to spend time with the one friend I have on my birthday, but she lives an hour away and she's having some surgery soon and I dont even have a car anymore so forget that idea. I'm so sad most of the time, it's like stop the world, I want to leave it.

[Ladybug9]

Nope. You don't sound melodramtic at all. Why don't they just have one big birthday for all of the August birthdays? Unless someone needs to feel special and wouldn't like it that way. Well, I have so many address's of friends I've met on the different support groups, including FB. I am a crazy person who loves to send birthday cards, get well, just be happy, whatever, cards!! LOL... And if I lived near you, I would bake you a cake and we could throw a big piece at each other!! Are you smiling yet? That is what I'm trying to do so you don't feel bad! Hey, I KNOW I'm the crazy one in my family and I love it!! Why? Because I can laugh at myself and I no longer let people make me feel "less than"... And you shouldn't either because you are special. Don't you forget that! If someone doesn't appreciate your presence, it's their loss and someone else's gain!

[Hidden in reply to Ladybug9]

Thank you. I just tried to send you a personal message but it didn't go through. I really feel bad about this whole day. How are you?

[Ladybug9 in reply to Hidden]

Trying to stay awake! Try again. I was having issues a few minutes ago so I signed out and signed back in. that seemed to work. It kept telling me an "oops" message! LOL... I can try but not sure how to do it. I'm still green around this site!!