Giving up

[Jack112288]

I wanna give up on life so bad but I have a child that needs me I’m here because of her she’s pushes me to live at times I feel like I failed her I’m not good enough to be a mother or to live I don’t wanna date I’m always getting hurt I’m always getting mistreated I’m always getting used but I blame myself for always caring or loving more then the next person I just wanna hate fill my life with hate I don’t wanna date because dating causes depression and anxiety attacks for me why can’t I be loved am I even worth loving at this point in time

[Hidden]

Oh course you're worth it! I'm sorry you're hurting. If you don't mind me asking, why do you want to give up?

[Jack112288 in reply to Hidden]

Yes you can ask you might be here with something that can help me having someone love me for me every situation I get into I always end up hurting I thought this last guy was the one and he turned out to be just like the rest and at times I don’t feel like I’m good enough to be a mom

[Hidden in reply to Jack112288]

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. Just remember that you are a good person who is worth it! If someone wrongs you in any way it has to do with them and not you.

[PhotoBird]

I know that life seems unbearable at times; that it can be really difficult. And I know finding love can be really hard. Sometimes we love the wrong people. People who hurt us unintentionally, or people who take pleasure in controlling us and manipulating our lives and take pleasure in doing so. Although it might take a long time to recover from their wrong doings, you are definitely worth love. And if you don’t want to date that’s totally okay, you don’t have to, Please remember that love isn’t just romantic, by the sounds of it, your daughter loves you a lot, so much so, to help push you to stick around. One thing I have believed from a young age is that if you bring a child into this world you can’t abandon them in any way possible (in your control) they need you and look up to you even if you don’t believe it. Are you seeing a therapist for this? If not I’d really recommend that you do find someone you are comfortable with and talk to them. You’ll find just getting things off your chest will help, you won’t have to carry your burdens alone. If that is not available to you, I highly recommend instead to get a notebook/journal and fill it with your worries. Write everything that comes to mind, good and bad, at the end of the day, put even the darkest things that you don’t tell anyone else. Write it all down and it should also give relief. When you fill the journal you can burn it or keep it. But whatever you do don’t forget your worth. You are incredible. You are here for a reason. You have a child who loves you and deserves you in her life. You have not failed her, you are still around for her.

[Jack112288 in reply to PhotoBird]

Thanks I really do appreciate you and your kind words yes I write I haven’t been doing it lately I see a therapist but she’s not available every day that I need someone I can’t talk to my family too judgmental so I just hold things in I find myself yelling at my baby mire when I’m upset

[Kat_21]

Hi! I can relate to this so much.

I have a little boy who doesn't get the attention he deserves because of my illness and depression. At this point though, he's my entire reason for being.

I always tell people that 1. You don't need someone else to love you. Love yourself, and even if you can't find it in you to do that, at least value yourself. Your daughter loves you, and that's all that should matter. You matter, and you don't need validation from a guy to know that. 2. Never look for someone. When you stop looking is when the right person comes along. If you're constantly trying to find your soul mate, you tend to rush into things and ignore red flags just to have someone.

I hope you do feel better. This is just some things I've learned over the years. Stay strong, and I'm here if you need a friend.

[Jack112288 in reply to Kat_21]

Thanks everything you said was head on I rush into things looking for love when it’s not even there I always find myself loving the wrong person my time will come until then I’m okay with how things are I have to focus more on me instead of the bad