Giving out

[Dave_H]

Everything has lost its meaning. There’s no point to anything anymore. I experience no joy or pleasure in anything. I can’t stand my present circumstances, and there’s nothing I can do to change them. I have no energy or life left in me. Only despair and pain and the desire for it all to be over. There’s nothing to look forward to. I’m exhausted and sick of life. Depression has done what alcoholism and addition couldn’t do, suck the will to live out of me. I’m worthless. I’m a failure. There’s no way for me to rebuild a life. The emptiness is unbearable. The inability to improve my life makes me sick. I’ve seen enough. I’ve lived a blessed life and now I live a cursed one and there’s no way out. There’s nothing left of me anymore. There’s no me. I don’t want to keep trying, because everything is futile. I’m trapped. I can’t stand feeling this way. Nothing brings any relief. I’m so broken. I have no self esteem. I’m a loser. And stupid. And weak. Life is too painful, too difficult. I’m giving out. I can’t fight the darkness. I have no energy or drive left. The desperation I feel is overwhelming.

[Hidden]

Don't give up on everything, your family can still give you conversation and light joy if you turn it around. Concentrate on yourself, what you like and what inspires you and talk to them about this. If too difficult, do it for yourself and give yourself dreams to fulfil. Your next relationship should be full of hope and keep this thought in mind, your reason for going forward

[Mickey1953]

I hear the desperation in your post, and I felt like that two days ago. The only things that were holding me here are my companion pets.

I almost called a hotline number, I was so agitated and just sick - I get migraines and those exacerbate whatever anxiety and panic I am experiencing. I honestly felt like I was having some kind of breakdown.

I took Xanax, ate something even though I wasn't hungry, slept for hours and finally woke up, past the feeling of a breakdown, but not yet entirely okay, still fighting a headache. I am in the process of finding a therapist.

If you don't have a therapist, you need to find one, and in the meantime, please call a crisis hotline, they can help at the moment and help find you long-term help. Don't give up yet. You aren't alone. There are others here who have fought this same battle.

[bonkers65]

Don't give up. It's NOT IMPOSSIBLE for things to get better

[Hidden]

Everyone cares, it is the deep down emotion of everyone!

[Hidden]

Please know it gets better! I was in a dark place and i felt the same way. you’re not alone have you tried therapy or self help books?

[Hidden]

Do not give up..this thing will pass if not today maybe tomorrow or the next day but definitely it will.the good thing when we are at our lowest is there is no way but up.hang in there my friend you are not alone.